Lets start off another round of......   

"You know you are addicted to OGLC when......"?

 

 

 

 

 

 

The title explains it all..

 

 

I just dont fucking understand... Some of the people on this site, dont get that I DO NOT live in the STATES and therefore know differently on rules and such that change from country to country. I try to explain myself and all i get is OMG STFU Malk, no one cares. I know it's pointless to even post this cause its just going to get deleted and or get me suspended again. MEH!

 

 

This place feels less and less like a place i wanna be more and more. I try to get along with everyone, i really fucking do, but it seems the rest of ya all have this opinion of me where i "no it all". When in fact it's spelt Know. But anyways. I know I am strong with my opinions on certain matters and here's the thing, maybe i do know more about certain things than maybe you do, are ya jealous? Is that why you start fights with me and get everyone to jump all over me? It's fucking lame! I come here to try and have a nice chat with people and some of ya will have a nice chat with me, Fallen, Grot, KK, and others, but some of ya just seem to think that I just wanna fight ya. No that is not the case, i just have different views, know different things. I didnt know that in the states that if a person cannot afford treatment for their animal that they can sign it over to some higher power (dont know who it is was never explained) and they would take care of it. In that cause in Canada if you can't afford to treat a cureable ailment the only 2 options are put the animal down or take it home and have it suffer. There is no ruling in canada that all sick animals must be treated, and unfortunately owners of an animal can have it put down because they just dont want it, and we have to do it, if the owner wants it done, it has to be done. But whatever.

 

 

I was looking forward to coming on here and talking about my vacation to people, and telling them on how they could get as great a deal as I did, but it seems that most of ya all just wanna tell me to stfu! So this is malk S'ingTFU because that is what is wanted. I will not be back. To those that I made relationships with I will miss you, and to those that for some reason hate me, well i got nothing to say.

 

 

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Let's see who comes up with the best:

"You KNOW you are addicted to OGLC when..."

Most of will not need an example. Let's watch the comments on this BLOG fill up. I am sure Lea will find a way to give out a consolatory prize. 

 

Thanks for chatting with  us!!!    ~OGLC Staff

 

 

 

 

 

 

Happy Halloween !!!

happy halloween fro famous SALEM MASS  "WITCH CITY " were gonna celebrate as best we can with the crowds here promoting oglcwith as many local oglc family as we can .. but we want your support were looking for some new art work form teh front page andto change up some of the banners on the site .so here the deal . have you allways wanted to say your art work is on the web or your pics are posted on the best dam chat site in the world!!!!!

this month were looking for halloween were gonna run these contests for the hoildays and seasons so lets see what you can come up with .make us proud .. show your love for oglc!!!!!!!

the winner will have the great prestige of having the art work posted on the front page and of course you will have bragginig rights and well its a great way to give back to og and all hes done for you ..this contest ends friday !!!!!

remebering that hallween is different al over the world we woudl love to see some blogs about what you do on halloween and how you celebrate it and some pics of costumes would be great maybe we will have a costume contest .. have someone screen shot you if you get dressed up halloween week and we will vote on the  best costumes on nov1 ..

ok and now for the best .. have you seen the commercails for the new ipod?????i know you want one ... well i know i do ... so ....how many friends can you convert to oglc addicts .. as we allways say oglc is only as good as the members that we ahve so why not help make us better !!!!!! we will run the referal contest from well now till monday november1 12 midnight est .. as we start am amazing month at oglc we will announce the winner of the ipod contest now this will give you time to make new contacts and work on gettign the referals you need now .. lately we have seen lots of people giving up on trying saying its to hard .. talk to lea ... or donna we will help you promote we need a busy room and some help and anyone that comments you sent them you get the points .. so heres the rulse same as allways ..

bring new members  to the site .

have them register get  them approved

have them commet here on the contest blog  (wow love the site .. enter name here  sent me ...)

you need to have at least 5 new referals to enter contest starts at 5 am sun oct 11.

ends at 12:01 monday nov.2 est

added bonus  contest  that will be awarded surprise prizes:

first memebr to get 5

first member to get 10

anyone that gets 50 registerd members in this contest will get 100.00 cash !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

who ever gets the 1400th member gets a prize and if we reach 1500 members before the end of this contest .. we will give away 2 ipods !!!!!!!!

anyone up to a private challenge for a wii ????? 100 members in 30 days .... there will be a side contest ... talk to lea ....you have talk to her before tuesday if you are interested ..

 

just a reminder all accounts are checked and confirmed not to be dulicates all new members must have the profile approved and email confirmation must be returned .... good luck gang we at oglc hope you have a safe and exciting  halloween and that you enjoy these treats we put out there for you .... 1love 1chat... many ways 2 win ...

 

He has been bad for days now. The meds are fucking him up. He is not eating and getting really weak. He had more fits and hurt himself again. Hurt his neck and back. I can see he can't take this much longer. He has asked for another doctor. He will be here tomorrow. I'm sorry I haven't been in touch. But I'm looking after mom. She is a wreck. I told Danny everything you said You really make him feel special. Hope you no that. He is a man that loves and never got what he deserved out of life. He has been shit on so many times. Yet he is always there for me. He is too soft he let's ppl use him. He believes ppl too much. And they fucking drain him. I really belive they r too blame for this. Taking everything from him. His heart his strength his love. You no we found out he has given 1000 s too ppl he has known online. Paying rent bills food clothes for them. It sickens me. Where are they now?

lavey6662000@yahoo.com please Email this address with all ur love please and thank you OGLC love One Love ~ One Chat

 

 

 

[Well, I figured I would force myself to actually write another blog post. I've actually meant to do these more often but..... I'm awfully lazy. xD
I would like to label this as a rambling on post, like my first one. When I have a full topic to talk about it will be more organize, trust me. Also I am adding random facts and questions to the reader with my posts, including this one. ]

 

 

A few new things have been going on with my life, like on the 18th I am heading to Va to visit a friend for a week, will be back around the 25th.
So I don't know if I will be around here on Oglc at the time.
...Hmm.. Which reminds me that I need to start packing for the trip itself...
Next I will be going to College next month around the 7th.
Just paid for the classes and books earlier today. I would have never guessed it would cost this much. Lol.
I'm going to SWIC, the same place where I took my GED classes and tests.
I hope things will go well while attending there. I really don't know what to expect, I hope I wont screw up. Heh.
Well....I should say that I hope I wont screw up TOO much. xD
I am simply going to take two basic classes to start things off with. I don't want to jump into this fully with 4 or however many classes to deal with.
These are English and Math. I really don't know what I want to study for other things but, luckily I will have some time to figure that out.
If college doesn't work out for me, I think I might look into the military for careers.
But if it does work out and I enjoy it, then next on my too do list will to find a crappy first job. I just wish I could find jobs that are solitary or anything with minimal amount of dealing with other people.
I really hate interacting with people in real life. Lol.. but sadly I don't think I will ever find one like one.
Heh, I kind of repeating myself but with just a tad more info then my last post. Sorry about that.
Well other then those. Nothing exciting has been going on lately.
Just been trying to figure out what I want for my first tattoo. A lot of designs will float into my head but, idk.. nothing im sure that I want for sure or even draw on paper well.
Oh btw, as of 5/15/2010 I have been here for about 70 days. Wow, seems like only yesterday since I first joined. Lol.
-Fin

 

 

--Random Fact: The Sage finds the best time to think is when sitting in the shower. --

 

 

--]Sageheart's question of the "week" [--
What is your favorite desert to eat?

Howdy ya'll.  Its Smooth checking in.  :P  I haven't blogged in a while.  I have a lot to tell you.  Lets start with the good yea??

 

First, I'm getting really excited for the Graduation party in May.  OMG.  Its going by so fast and I'm happy that it is.  :D  I can't wait to meet my online family!!  It sucks that Marcus ain't gonna be there.  I was looking forward to rubbing his shiney head.  :P  JK.  Ummm but seriously Marcus you will be missed.  I can't wait to meet the Sessions'.  Ed.  We are gonna have a helluva time, specially with me as you 'sidekick'.  MANDA.  Hmmm.  What can't I say about you.  Your awesome.  Can't wait to meet you.  Love you hun <3  Katherine.  I can't wait to meet your awesome self.  I love your personality and I love talking on the phone with you. S:  I also love your giggle.  It makes me laugh everytime. :D  Lanna.  I really hope you can go.  Can't wait to meet you!!  Its scary how fast we've turned you into a regular.  We love you hunny and are glad to have you.  Adam.  Can't wait to meet you bro.  We'd make a bad ass team.  Elaina.  I love  you like a sister.  I'm here for you to talk to anytime.  I can't wait to hear you sing in person.  :D  I love your voice.  You have a beautiful voice.  Rodney.  Man.  Its scary how alike we are and how many years seperate us.  I really think we are brothers somewhere down the line.  I would openly accept you as my family, as would i with everyone I mention in this blog.  I love you bro.  ONE LOVE, ONE CHAT!!  I love the site.  You can expect more promo vids from me and I've been promoting on other sites.  Trying to give back what you gave to me.  Like i said in my last promo vid.  "I wanna see the site keep goin' and growin'!!"  Cindy.  I can't wait to meet you.  Lea.  OMG.  I love your accent.  :D  Can't wait to meet you.  Your awesome.  IGGY!!  I can't wait to meet you man.  I feel like were bros.  Your awesome man and congrats on the job.  I'm proud for you bro.  Hope to see you in may!!  And last but not least, Raych.  I can't wait to meet you hun.  Your awesome.  I'm excited and nervous at the same time.  Excited you'll be my first OGLCer I'll meet.  :D  Nervous about... i really don't know what.  IDK.  Of course there are others but I just have sooo much to say about all of you.  Can't wait to meet all you guys.  :D  And people that aren't going keep chatting.  We love you!!

 

Ok.  Time for me to adress my take on the drama lately.  Sorry it has to be done.  It's tearing me up.

 

I'm actually responding to Mica's blog.  I just read hers' and I agree with her.  Guys.  Lets keep the drama elsewhere.  This site is to get away from drama.  We come here to get away our normal lives.  I have personal issues but I don't go blabbing in chat about it.  Granted, there have been days when I've been down and people ask me whats wrong.  Thats because they don't wanna see you guys down.  I know when I notice someone's down I talk to them.  Not in the public.  I pm them.  If anyone ever needs someone to talk to send me a pm.  I love helping people.  I love cheering people up.  If you want someone to talk to cuz your down just pm me saying hey kyle/smooth.  I was wondering if I could talk to you.  Not feeling myself....blah blah blah.  I'll answer it and we can talk.  I love you guys.  You are my family.  I'm here for each and everyone of you.  We all are.  At least I hope we are.

 

Ok my last topic.  There have been rumors floating around from someone (who will remain unnamed).  Saying stuff about me.  Please knock it off.  You know who you are.  You have also been bringing unwanted drama to other members as well.  Again.  its UNWANTED!!

 

Okay.  I'm done ranting and raving.  :P  Wow.  Everytime I write a blog I end up spilling my guts.  Guess thats what the blog is for.  Well, trust me there will be more from me.

 

Love ya'll,

 

Smooth out :P

It's a blog. I'm gonna try it. I've only been on OGLC since last Friday, and I'm already in love with it. The roller coaster that has been my emotional state the past few days, has just about driven me insane. And my teeth are deciding to be little brats and hurt. Today, or rather yesterday was complete shit, woke up, in the best mood I've been in for ageeeees. And then got shot down and burned before the day was done. And with that happening. I've discovered that OGLC has some super epic people. 

 

For now, because I don't know most of you, still. I'm gonna point out Ash (aka, babydamiensmommy). And Kyle. (Smoooooooooooooooooooooth, tehe)

And oh shit my nose is bleeding again. >.>

But, anyway, Ash and Kyle, have helped me and made me smile more than I should have today. I already love them.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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I've been chatting as a member of OGLC for a few months so far. It's amazing how natural OGLC feels to me. I come here with an open heart, an open mind and the best intentions. What I got in return was that and more. I've learned so much from each and every one of you.

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Rodney : First of all, your a BIG inspiration towards me. You stand up for whats right, You fight for what you believe in, You work your ass off just for every one of us to be able to come together and be with eachother as family. Like I said before.. Your a young spirit and an old soul.. Thank you for everything! I learn something from you everyday - to never give up what you believe in, your dreams, your destiny. You are proof of all that you desire.

Lea : I look up to you. I admire your honesty, your loyalty, dedication and passion for this site. I love that you give me constructive critisism. As a child I didn't have much guidance in my life. I feel something inside me lean towards you like I've been wanting this for so long. You know how to wake me up inside. You have the best intentions and I love and admire that about you.

Ed&Cindy : You have one of the most amazing families. I admire your family and the both of you and see the beauty inside each of you guys. You and Cindy amaze me. Part of me has to take the role of both daddy and mommy for my son and I look up to you both. Thank you for everything, thank you for your love. Love is the most important thing in life. You guys are amazing.

Marcus : Were to start..  :) First I want to say thank you for everything. I admire you and Rod so much. I think it's great that your by his side every single day. You are truely a gentleman. I love how you always make me smile all the time. I love the dork inside you [;)]. You see the side of me not much people has ever seen.. your special. Thank you for being you and accepting me for me.

Mandy, Nic, Ian, Mica, Rossy, Rowena, Kyo : Thank you for your laughs, support, loyaly, love, inspiration, advice and being there for me when I need you. I know I can count on you guys no matter what! Your all inspiring to me. Congratulations on stepping up Kyo and Rowena!

OGLC FAMiLY : Thank you for opening up and letting me get to know a little about yourselves. I have met some amazing people on this site! Each one of you, I have a special place in my heart for. Your always there and I love that most of you leave the drama out. I love meeting new members and bonding with everyone. You all are awesome! Stay positive! Stay Strong! [One Love ~ One Chat] The only people who will truely be there for you is the OGLC family so don't fuck that up :)

 

ash & damien

So, I'm pretty pissed right now. You see I have this friend, lets call him Fred.
I met Fred online about 3 or 4 years ago and we quickly became friends. We talked everyday.
One day Fred tells me he joined the Air Force and we wont be able to talk much while he is in training.
A few months pass and he IM's me today. I didn't get the IM till he was offline. I go find Fred on facebook. And he got married last month, without telling me. I didn't even know he liked someone and I then I find out he got married.
I happen to think its pretty crappy. When I asked him why he didn't tell me he was gettin married he said 'idk you never asked.'. True I didn't, but who just up and asks their friends 'Are you getting married?' Not me. Idk it just pissed me off.

 

 

Then I have another friend who know's I like him. and he has to talk about him and his gf's sex life to me... GAH!

Ok.. so there's been a lot happening on site (and off) that needs to be addressed... and me being the person I am... I need to handle it. Lately, there's been more and more drama being plastered in the lobby, or being said on social network sites. Granted, we all have our rights to talk about things. HOWEVER, when it affects the chatting of our members, and takes a toll on the room vibe, there has to be something done. Yes, we all have problems, we all have something that we'd probably love to get off our chests. But it doesn't have to be shoved down everyone else's throat or painted up like a billboard.

 

Seriously. It's creating unnecessary bullshit that myself, the other mods, and the admins have to clean up. We have all talked about this at some point or another amongst ourselves, and the members who witnessed an act of the childish behavior. EVERYONE is in agreement that it's an annoyance. Whether it's about life, or a relationship, or a problem with another chatter, not everyone needs to know. IF there is something going on, you can go to a mod, or an admin, or a trusted friend. We (mods and admins) are here for anyone that needs us, but we can't do our job properly if we aren't given the chance. 

 

I, myself have been going through a multitude of things since I joined the site. But I have respected myself, the people involved, and the other members by keeping it OUT of the public eye. Do I write blogs every now and then? Yes. But I'm not doing it for pity, or attention, or just to start a big riot. I write my periodical blogs for my own sense of release. 

 

With this said, keep the personal things PERSONAL, and lets get back to the fun, shall we?

 

-Mica-

[[The Wicked One]]

  Sunday Morning LEa & Keith were cut-off by another motorist. In the accident, their SUV rolled over, with both Lea & Keith getting hurt. Keith is fine,and Lea is admitted to the hospital with a bad cut to her arm, and Bumps and bruises. Let's ALL show them some Love and Support from our collective OGLC family. These are the times that "One Love ~ One Chat" means the most to us. It's NOT just a motto..  we live it. It happened in Maine, when Cute, Aries & DonnaMonna got in an accident, and now with Lea & Keith. Let's all collectively think positive, and wish them the best.

I don't know if Lea will be on the site in the next few days,but a simple thought of the Love and Friendship she brings to the site, is all that is needed. She is a good "Witch", and she can feel all our vibes....!!!  Let's all have a good time,and don't be sad, she wouldn't want it any other way!!  

  "One LOve ~ One Chat"    Much Love Lea!!  

:from your OGLC Family!

 

 

This weekend is the last weekend OGLC will be on-line. It's just too hard to keep all the whiners, and Egos happy all the time. WE can't please everyone all the time. WE have all enjoyed this run, as a staff, and for me personally...  I have learned alot from all of you. Hope to chat with you on another site.  We are shutting down the site!!  Sorry Guys!!   ~OG  :(

 

*Please read the first comment below!!  It helps if you remember todays date!!

 

 

 

 

amanda  is heading tot he hospital in just a few hours for her surgery  so i figured idd start a get well soon blog so she knows were all thinking about her .. in my religon i will use a yellow candle for healing and send the healing energy to her ...no matter what you follow or belive i hope you will find a way to do the same i truly belive i healed so fast from my accident because i was lucky to have so many people sending me healing energy .. also illbe sending some energy to ed and cindy as i know they will be stressed to the max ..so please add yoru comments and share your love fro the fire family ... manda .. hope you rback on your feet in no time at all mmmuch love to you all .. lea

I've been wanting to write a blog on here for about a week now. But every time I start it, I end up not knowing how to finish - or I lose my focus and I can't. The last 2 1/2 - 3 weeks have been really insane. I have two very big and hella important decisions to make about my life - Both hard, hurtful in one way or another, and will change a lot. This is pretty much to update you, and get some feedback on it.

 

Everyone knows about my relationship with Evil - it's no secret how I feel about him. It's been almost thirteen months since I started dating him, and six since I've seen him in person. God knows how bad I miss him, and what I would/wouldn't do to be with him again right at this moment. It hurts more than I thought, or ever expected it would. I wish that the plans we had made would have went through - but unfortunately time and situations prevented it. Do I blame anyone for it (besides myself for losing motivation), no. To be honest - I wish I would have stayed. I wish that I could have skipped this entire ordeal. Nothing against my family or the one friend I do have around here - but I'm 21 and I need to really live my own life. I can't do that with people always trying to hold me back. I feel so angry and so bitter lately. I lash out and I'm consumed with thoughts that aren't helping my situation. So how is it a problem right now? Well - the entire weekend, I've really been wondering about whether to move. I know I want to - and I know if given the chance at this second I'd leave if I could. It's not really about me. It's more about him. I know he has his family, his friends, his job, and his entire life. I don't wanna move down there thinking that I'm gonna ruin anything - or that I'll be in the way. I don't wanna go and create a situation that he won't be happy with. I don't wanna move and possibly end up hurt and stuck. Sometimes I wonder if I'm in a way forcing him to be with me and maybe creating more problems. Hell I don't know anymore. The only thing I know is... I have never wanted something so badly before. I have never felt like this. People ask me "Why?" all the time. Because I love him. Because I'm IN love with him. There are days where we piss each other off like no other. There's days where we hurt each other - realizing it or not. There are days where we just want our own space. There are times when I wonder why I can't just walk away. He has my heart. If it wants it or not he has it - and I can't get it back. Not after all this time. Not after I've invested this much. I don't know what to do, and it's driving me crazy && breaking my heart in the process. 

 

The second thing I've been really thinking about - is the panic/anxiety attacks, and the mental breakdowns I've had. There's been five different ones since May 28th. It went from the usual - shaking, throwing up, unable to breathe, and pacing; to lashing out and harming myself. The last time I had one where I harmed myself, I was literally beating myself in the head with my fist - screaming about things that have been building for a while. I had another one like in the 4 AM blog I wrote a while back, where I was sitting in the corner rocking back and forth. Only this time - repeating sentences over and over like a broken record. I feel like I'm officially falling apart. And it's a combination of everything that's going on. There's a lot of urges to resort back to my old ways of cutting - but so far I've strayed from it. I'm worried though - that if it gets worse - it will happen. More than it used to when I was at that rock bottom point. (I would take blades to school and do it in class - and even in front of people) I'm worried that I might attack someone close to me - or even someone random. I'm not a violent person - honestly - confrontation is one thing I absolutely hate. The last thing I want is to hurt someone - physically, emotionally, mentally, whatever. So I've been considering going to a hospital if I have another episode. At least for a while. I hate the idea - cause I won't be able to communicate like normal - and I'll be forced to really deal with things while being in a somewhat isolated situation. It sucks. Cause I don't wanna be a liability to myself - or anyone else. And that's what I feel like right now.

 

I've kinda been staying away the last week or so - and I know that. Some of you have called me, checked up on me, and I really thank you for that. Some of you have been talking to me about things - and I've also been giving advice and listening like I normally would. My whole thing is now wanting anyone to worry. I wish I lived closer to people in here. Cause these are those times where virtual hugs (while still greatly accepted and appreciated) just don't do the justice of having a real one. Ah well, I should get back to it. Thanks for listening, again. And don't worry, the Wicked one will be okay. Somehow, some way, some day.

 

Much love,

Mica

this  blog is for you those that cared enough to worry that waited and hoped and prayed that part of this family was safe..

not the person that was looking for attention so bad that he tried to fake his own death ..as this unfolded we said from the begginning it sounded fishy. the facts have been found

no accident .. info recived fromt he lapd .  his computer has logged in to the site a number of times in the last 2 days and her computer met his in a unused  room ... why would you be so mean to people to  who care ..

for those of you that do care .im sorry that you were put thur this . these actions have nothing to do with oglc and it s staff .and im sorry for those of you that were hurting or confused and sad about your friend .. the attention that he was seekign should be used to make changes .. make new friends on the site .. better connections with people that will not do this to you . i wrote this blog so theres not mistake the person logginin to his computer was asked to end this the first time they logged in the pretend not  to know what we were talking about . this was his choice to do this ...and its  my choice to let you all in on the info so we can end this and move on .. lea

 

for you and your friend ,  why woudl you do this to a group of people that cared  about you and was upset .. and you continute your game . end your drama  your time  it running out .

Howdy guys.  Smooth checkin' in.  I just wanted to tell you guys that as your new mod I'm here to fight evil and foil villians -insert hero music here-.  Ooo wait.  This isn't Gotham City.  Ooops.  Wrong tab.  -.-  But seriously.  I'm here to help you guys if you need anything.  If that creepy guy that is breathing hard and is harassing you.... Who ya gonna call??  Well sure as hell not the Ghostbusters.  :P  Thats where I come in.  I'm here for you guys.  I love each and everyone of you.  I will get another blog up in a coupla days.  Of what you ask??  Pfft.  Not telling you now thilly gooth.  :P  But this is just saying I'm here if you need me.  ONE LOVE ~ ONE CHAT!!!!!!!!!

 

 

This is brought to you live by.... Smooth.  Your new Moderator for OG-Leetchat.  The original Leet chat.

 

Smooth out.

 

Hey everyone, I'm taking time off for a couple weeks from just about everything so that I can clear my thoughts and try to get a job around town here for the trip in May. Many things have been up and down for me the past few days because of Rain's surgery and everything, but in the end, I know everything will be just fine.

I'm hoping to find something full time around town here, or even something on the internet with web design. If everyone could please help me out as much as possible much like I all know you love helping everyone out, and keep an eye open for any jobs for me dealing with web development or graphic design, I would very greatly appreciate it.

Wish me luck and please keep Rain in your prayers as she is going through some tremendous pain with her surgery and everything else that's been going on - she had to be rushed to the hospital a couple of nights ago because she woke up in a pool of her own blood, but everything is fine now, they got her a blood transfusion and she is perfectly fine, just resting like she should be doing. :)

I want to thank everyone that has been there for me the most lately when I needed a shoulder to lean on, which is the vast majority of the site that really knows who I am, those that don't know who I am, I'm DJHockeyman :P (had to throw the smartass comment in there). But seriously everybody, thank you for all the love and support you've given me over the past year and a half, it's been greatly appreciated and very helpful!

Adam (DJHockeyman)

Hey everyone, it's Adam again. I just wanted to tell everybody a little story about my life from 4 years ago to this very day. Everything in my life was going smoothly when all of a sudden BAM my gf decided to split with me, for no apparent reason, and it caused me to make some of the stupidest mistakes of my entire life. When she split up with me, I decided to take a walk to clear my head, but it wasn't just any walk. This walk consisted of heavy blowing snow, heavy traffic and about a 35-40 foot cliff to my right. I walked that road for 30 miles, turned around and walked back in the same conditions if not worse.

    When I returned home, I began going after the alcohol I had stashed in my closet. Though it wasn't just any alcohol, I went straight for the Jack Daniels, Baccardi, Southern Comfort, 99 Peaches etc. About 8 bottles, completely full, and they were completely empty in about 3 hours and I hadn't gotten a buzz yet, so I found more in the house and kept going. I thought nobody cared and that my life was pretty much over.

    Over the following two years, I continued drinking, never even considering AA meetings, and met up with a guy on fubar.com that brought me to OGLC. That very day that he brought me to OGLC, I started to feel like I was at home. Everyone treated everybody great, everybody got along and it was like one big happy family. As the site changed, so did some members feelings, including myself in 2009. But, with the help of everybody here, I pulled through my drunken rage and saw that everything on OGLC was done not to hurt me, but to help me and make everything a better time.t

    The site has truly and literally saved my life. I have been sober now for 1 year and 7 months, and I owe it to everybody on here for sticking by me when I truly needed somebody the most.

Thank you everybody for showing what true friends you really are!

DJ Hockeyman - One Love~One Chat

 

Hey Rodney,

I just wanted to make this blog and wish you a happy birthday and hope its an awesome day for you. Hope your having a blast in guam. Your a busy man But We Still Love you!! and I hope your day rocks!! well i'm sure other people will follow as I wish you a happy birthday! Rock On Bro!!

 

 

 

Also here is a video i made for ya rodney!

 

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8vO4Z7eLVA4

 

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Our Prayers and Condolences go to our Dear Family Member "Dee". (SatanofNazareth)

God bless her mom, and her family as she suffers the loss of her Mom.

We love you Dee. Take Care. We are here for you. 

Your OGLC Family.

    Hey guys, as 2010 has been moving right along, just as the past years have been doing very quickly. Johnstown, Pennsylvania has gotten less and less populated, which is making it harder to find a job. But, at the same time, I kind of enjoy it because it gives me the opportunity to really stop and think about what I've learned over the years.

 

    So many people have told me to keep my head up and focus on the good things in life, and I have done just that. Since 2009, when I first joined OGLC, I have really grown to realize what this site is all about and how much everybody is truly there for one another. I still thank all of the admins, moderators and members for putting up with me on a daily basis, and especially Rod for giving me the opportunity that he did to really show my full potential on here.

 

    Since New Year's, I'm a changed individual and know what my responsibilities are on the site. To show the love, respect and dedication that anybody else on here does. But I also feel that I take things a step beyond that, in the fact that I really try my hardest to make up for past mistakes, move forward and live life to the fullest each and every day. I am able to have a good time on here again, like I had when I first signed up, and I'm able to do everything that I've wanted to do, online and in real life.

 

    Not one person on here is identical in any way, except that we all show respect for one another and that we are one big happy family. I guess what I'm really saying is, that time changes everybody, some good and some bad, but in order to find the good in somebody, you need to look past the bad that is being done and really just show a convincing nature to everybody. No matter who you are, where you're at or what you do in life, there is good in everybody, you just have to find it within yourself.

 

    OG-RodDog, fire38 and lea all found the good in me right from the start, that is why they let me vent when I vented last year, and I am still a regular member on here today. It goes to show, that without people that care, you can't get anywhere in life, and that's what this site does for each member daily, they show they care, and they allow everybody to just be themselves. For that, I thank everyone for letting me show who I truly am, show how well I can handle situations and allowing me to be the person you all knew when I first signed up!

 

Thank you guys,

 

Adam (DJHockeyman)

Ok, yes I'm new here... wanted to vent a little about my ex. Him and I think very differently when it comes to "letting go". Maybe I didn't specify to him when I was angry and said to let go and move on. I was talking about his past... he doesn't share anything. He hates being alone, but it's his fault he ends up alone time and time again. The closer I got, he pulled away. The more I trusted him and wanted him to just be who he was, I got pushed away. Anyone who wants to be close to him gets pushed back, like he's afraid of something... I want him to know that I care about him,  that I want to make him feel better, help him with problems and BE there, like a friend should. Then he tells me it's none of my business... and it really hurts because I want him to want me in his life... it doesn't matter if I know it's irrational or petty... he says things like that so harshly it just cuts me to the core... it's only been 3 weeks since we broke up... and I did it for him... I love him. I want him to be happy. That's all I ever tried to attain... But he doesn't want me to know what's wrong... he just wants to brood all by himself and push the people who love him away. Maybe 'cause he's scared. Maybe 'cause he's comfortable and doesn't know any other way to live... but I'll never know... 'cause he won't let me in...

Its the wee hours of the morning, I'm up late, again. Layin in bed thinking bout things.

What is love?

 

Thats whats on my mind this time. I'm sure all of us have had our own expierences with love, I'm sure we all express it and describe it in differant ways and im sure we all feel it differantly. Love is a scarey thing, but then it makes me calm at the same time. Love has no rules. Love thinks its a badass, and can make its own rules. How can someone who has been hurt so bad by the people that are supposed to love her the most ever truely love someone? I probably have the most trouble with "Love."  Love to me is like a baby - its needy, always there, annoys the shit out of you at times, but in the end you realize you need it, or without it you would be heartbroken.. 

SOMETIMES i just wanna tell love to fuck off, but it never goes away. Ever. 

Your an evil no good emotion; but in the end i cherish you and hold you dear to my heart.

 BUT my life wouldn't be complete without love, i'd miss it every single day.

I will embrace it when it comes and hope for the best, aye?

 

BAH!! Fuck you early morning thoughts....

 

"Love is patient, Love is kind, It does not envy, It does not boast, It is not proud."

                                                                   1 Corinthians 13:4

 

 

Hey guys.  It's Kyle aka Smooth.  Just want to say... Thank you guys.  I've been on the site since May 2009.  I originally was a member becuase the forum I frequent has a room.  Solids you may know it as.  I originally just went there.  Then we had some issues in there among each other and me and a couple members started hanging out in the lobby more.  And I'm glad I did.  I have grown close to all of you.  I actually hardly go in Solids anymore.  Mostly because most of the people that go back there aren't on a lot.  I love all of you guys on here.  There's a few I love more then others and they know who they are!  But nonetheless I love everyone on the site.  I haven't brought any new members in yet and I'll make a new years resolution to bring in a certain number.  I promise!  You guys are all part of my family.  And if I had the money I'd send each of you a christmas present.  But even if I got $1 presents that $1461.  I don't have that.  There is just so many good times I've had on here and I have so much to say about you guys.  Well I'm done rambling.  Leave a comment please!

 

 

Love ya'll.

 

 

Kyle aka Smooth

many of you will notice that our loveable IGGY 's name is green!!!!! were very happy to welcome iggy in to the famliy as the lastmod before our one year anniversary ... mannys upbeat personality and abilty to chat up anyone that comes in along with many other qualities are what got him this honor we look forward to moving forward with him on our team of amazing mods.

manny has also taken an intrest in workign with our members on the graphics arts team .. a group of members that get emails from the site asking for art work for banners and logos and things ... so if your interested in giving back to oglc please getin touch with our newest mod iggy he will be happy to get you on the list .. thanks iggy for all you do keep it real and you will do a great job ..

It all makes sense now. How I've been feeling, the thoughts and memories surrounding my actions as of late. It's because of the one year anniversary... the night I took my life back from the ruthless.. along with so much more.

I had met him in late 2007, he seemed so great, so cool, so amazing, so caring. Everything a person like me, who had been screwed over by everything and everyone needed. Almost everyone else had shunned him away besides a few hellos, besides me. I let him know, that despite his past (convicted sexual predator), he was a human. Besides, it was his past right? How wrong was I.

What started out as friendship, and advice from both of us, to each other and those around us, turned into the most grueling year of my life. What I thought was true, turned out to be the most blatant lies. How could I have gotten into a situation like this?

Suicidal thoughts and attempts. I was failing my Senior year of High school, all because of what? Because of a man I loved, who wanted nothing more than to "help." His idea of help, though, was calling me out of my name, and breaking down every ounce of self confidence I had.

I was doubting everyone in my life. I had sheltered myself off from my family, and the rest of the world. He had so much control, my mind was gone. It was all about him, nothing more. I didn't care what happened. Even my faith had disappeared. I hadn't prayed in so long, I figured God would give up on me too.

April 5th, 2008. Worst night of my life. I had just turned 19, high school was still brutal, I still didn't care. Mike was what I wanted. My grandmother was hospitalized with what we thought was the flu. Pneumonia, along with a stroke. But she was getting better that Tuesday, she was jokin around, even smiling. But by Friday night/Saturday morning, it was hopeless. She was brain dead. Another stroke had finally done it. I still remember that night like it was yesterday. The IVs in her body, the tube down her throat. But there was nothing we could do. Before we pulled the plug, the last thing I promised her, is that I would get my life together.

Mike was the one that I went to for comfort. It wasn't my own family, who needed me. I was still infatuated, he still had control of the strings he'd tied to my back. I wasn't Tamica anymore. I was Mike's puppet. He controlled all, he knew all, he had all. He had me convinced that everyone was against me. Even my fiance.

August 2008. He had finally gotten me to the point where I had to leave Andrea. After four years, her marriage to Trevor, and the birth of Raelynn. I treated that little girl like she was my own. I had been around when Andrea was going to college, I had helped her. We'd written for so long..shared pictures...dreams.. I had asked her to marry me. My mom had no idea I was even attracted to girls until 2006, when I proposed to Andrea, and sent her the ring. She had gotten me out of the damaging life I was leading. I wasn't doing the stupid shit I had been before I met her. I even stopped smoking. She was the one that pulled me from darkness.

I had written it over Myspace. I probably still have the message somewhere. I explained that I couldn't hurt Raelynn by her having to deal with Mommy, Daddy, and Mommy #2. A child should never have to do that. It wasn't that I didn't love Andrea anymore... or Raelynn.. but Mike had planted it in my head that she didn't love me anymore...she had her life..I wasn't apart of the equation. She never replied.

About two weeks after I wrote Andrea the message, I decided that I'd had enough. I couldn't live this way anymore. My friends had backed off, I had lost my inner soul, there was literally a zombie in my place. I was still failing my Senior year, even summer school wasn't getting it. It was almost the start of the 2009 year. Mike was treating me like his puppet, his slave, his dog. He never once thought of me. I called Jade that night, crying my eyes out to Flaw.. literally dry heaving in a panic attack. It took me a half an hour to finally send the message that I couldn't talk to him anymore over msn. He never replied either.

He's contacted me once since then, about the phones that he had bought from Wal-Mart for us. I couldn't hold myself control, and I cried. Despite the fact that it was over, he still held a part of me that I couldn't get back. Looking back, and realizing what's been happening since then, he still does.

I've been in counseling since the end of April... the only good thing he ever encouraged me to do. While I did it for the wrong reasons in the beginning, it's been the best thing I've done within the past few years. I graduated high school, a few days into the 2008-2009 school year. I hammered it out, and stuck with the promise that I had made to my grandmother. It was the least I could do after everything I hadn't done. My biggest accomplishment.

Since then, I've had a couple boyfriends, two in Ireland, both named Danny. The first one is getting married, he got with her two months after we split, even gave her my engagement ring. The second one, I'm still close with. I'll always love him in some way. I met Jose (Evil) about four months ago, and despite what we've been through so far, I realize I love him too much to just let it go. I'm risking a lot, but that's what love makes you do.

Part of me is still trying to salvage a bit of what I have, while rebuilding a new life. I've lost so much and so many in the past two years, I can't handle it anymore. I'm holding on with both hands, until they slip, or the person/situation removes them. Change has always been hard for me, but it's the best thing. I wouldn't have it any other way.

I'm rebuilding the person I was before Mike. Outgoing, had goals, dreams, was a human with emotion, not the zombie. I'm starting to live. I don't think it would be this way, if I hadn't said goodbye that night. Or if I hadn't met the people who have changed my life in positive ways. The people I hold close to me now. The ones from then, and the ones now.

Life is too short to let someone control how you think, feel, act, talk, live. You are your own person. It's all a battle of Good vs Bad. You decide which one wins.

"You better get your armor...."

 

Any one who has watched KK on cam knows exactly what im talking about here. how shes totally crazy and dynamic. and we love her for her silly faces. KK you are totally sweet... sometimes spicy.... but always delicious :D youve been a great friend and i appreciate your company soooooo much.... but for those who havent gotten to know you... i made them a cheatsheet so that others can understand just what your thinking.




I love you KK you rock

how many places can you chat for free and have friends that are more like family and get to go on vacation to vegas!!!!

woohoo we are so excited to see this trip come togehter .. our tickets are bought and were ready to go everyone  is asking whos going so heres were we can all post what days were gonna be there and whos coming .. ill be there with my hubby keith were booked for the 29-6th what a great way to spen my bday week !!! were lookign forward to hanging out with everyone and to see the sites we havnt been back to vegas since our honeymoon 7 years ago .. so were really excited..

thanks so much rodney for this amazing site and a great vacation ..  much leet love .. lea

I know it's been a while- I've been busy. I'm in Vegas right now visiting family till the 29th and I'm so thankful for this whole experience. Definitely thinking about moving here within a year so I can complete atleast 2 semesters of college on Maui. I miss you all so much. I lost my phone recently but found out it's in mississipi. How? My cousin who was staying with us was packing to leave and my son threw my phone in her luggage. The next day I looked everywhere in a 4000 sq foot house for hours driving myself crazy. Hah. but she's shipping my phone back soon so I'll get it within a week or so. I'm living in a house with 13 family members and 2 computers so I'm trying my best when I have time to check in every once in a while and keep in touch.

 

 

Love you guys. Peace

Hi guys and gals!
Summer is just around the corner, and we at OGLC are prepping for a hot hot hot summer crank up your AC and let's get busy! It's time now to update your profiles put up some new pics, we need banners and will be doing some promoting over the next few weeks. From time to time we ask what have you done for oglc lately, you might not know how much time and effort go into making this the best chat on the net, so that you have a fun safe respectable and free sites chat on.

 What can you do it easy everything we ask benefits you in all your friends on the site it just makes your chatting experience even better. By filling in your profile and helps people get to know you so if you're in Chat and happen to see a new member bring up their profile by clicking their name and clicking community profile you can check out their profile welcome a new member and offer to help them their profile. We love to get all profiles to have pics. It's a great way to welcome new members in a very personal way by welcoming the welcoming them on their profile friending them or just leaving them a comments and showing them how the profiles work.

 

By updating your Facebook MySpace or other community profiles with a link to  OGLC in your profile that shows you love the site and gives us the possibility of new members even when you're not promoting a link is a helpful tool to bring new friends to the site. By bringing in new members you're helping the site and all of our members by giving them the opportunity to make new friends. Sometimes new members don't understand the way we do things at oglc but we believe in one love one  chat and we pride ourselves in showing new people with respect  how we changed the face of internet chat . Also by networking on these community profiles with your chat friends you're promoting the site and we. Updates on contests or events can easily be copied and pasted and shared on all communities to show your support for OGLC it only takes a minute but it means so much to those of us that work so hard so you can chat and have a good experience every day and night.

 

Our video player is a great tool not only can you put cool music and welcome messages but we fill it with promotion videos made by our members I hope you take a few minutes and watch these videos of love hard work and effort that goes into these videos truly touched Rod and continue to do so every time he sees them a great way to thank him for creating the site is by making a video and share it on YouTube. Be sure to send a link to an admin to have it put in the video player on the site if you need help we have members that are amazing at this been a great help to anyone that needs it. Don't be afraid to try even I've made a video and once you learn how to do it but actually pretty easy.

 

Promoting comes easy to some just by going to another site making friends and telling them we usually chat brings people to our site. We do not ever spam any site that we go to with info about oglc. Yes it's a lot easier spam a room with the address but we chat with respect on all sites not just our own. Sometimes it's difficult to go back to old site that used to use once you've been with us and see how chat can be. One thing we know for sure there are other people out there that would love a place to chat with the respect that we have here. It's never an easy job and we understand when you're promoting you take the time and you're up to the challenge make sure to talk to an admin if you want to set a goal and maybe earn something for your work but even bringing one new member a week to the site makes a difference for you and everyone else on the site.

These are just a few things that take just a little time out of your day or week to give back show your love and thank Rod for all the site has given to you there is no site on the web that's like what we have here at OGLC and the reason behind that is the members and staff that we have we've truly one-of-a-kind and we can only get better from here so I ask you now again what can you do to give back just a little or a lot to show your love what comes to mind right now is actions speak louder than words. The summer is just starting but before you know it will be celebrating our anniversary again in November how amazing would it be to look back and remember this blog and say I can't believe how far we've come since June are amazing members really came through for us what a great summer!!!

As an added incentive were not looking right now for new mods, a great way to stand out from the crowd and show you have what it takes to be part of this kick ass staff is to show us what you've got by getting involved pitching in  and giving back.

We do know that we're only as good as the members we have and we know we have the best chatters on the net.

i thank you now for taking the time to read this blog and hopefully has minimal typos because my new Dragon software a birthday present from my mom to all of you who put up with so many of my 3 AM half-asleep pull a typo rambling blogs can't say I master the software but I'm sure the typos are less than normal. thanks for all your help and look forward to seeing you in chat as always one love one chat!

Dear who ever,

I'm not rightfully sure why I'm writing this to you but I am I guess so you all can understand me better and where I come from and what not I'm not sure.I was born Jerica Lyn Kley on March 11, 1989. When my mama was pregnant with me she drank and did drugs, so when i was born I was born with a weak heart. I don't know how I happened to live through that. Anyways, when I was born the state took me away and put me in a foster home. When I was 3 i was officially adopted into the family that had taken me into their home, so my my new name became Jerica Lynn Hoglund. The family that adopted me added another "n" to my middle name cause they didn't seem to like it with one "n". I was adopted into a Christian home. The family that adopted also adopted my older sister which I'm so grateful for because if they hadn't I'm not sure I would have gotten to know her. My two brothers were adopted into two different families so it was harder to see them. I always wondered it would be like to live with my biological mom. I never cared for my biological dad he is nothing but a worthless piece of shit. Sorry that's the best way to put it. I got to see my biological mom for 3 years every week but I don't remember much of it but apparently I got to see her. If you saw a picture of her at my age we look so much alike. I am Canadian and Cherokee mix. I never dreamed that my father could ever hurt my family to the point where the state would have to take us away. Growing up I struggled knowing that I was adopted knowing that the people I have always called mom and dad weren't really my parents hurt. When I found that out I starting fighting more and more with my mom or I should say the person who I called mom. I struggled so much with the people I called friends back in elementary and middle school cause all they did was point fingers and call me fat, ugly and worthless. They made me lose my self confidence and I try and try to get it back but its like I cant seem to get it back. I have struggled with being happy with myself because of them calling me fat, ugly and worthless. Many people don't know me, don't know the real Jerica. The real Jerica was happy, full of energy, could just be constantly laughing without having to fake the fact that she is hiding her pain. All my life all I have felt was worthless cause thats what people led me to believe but at the same time I felt like I belong somewhere but not here. Growing up every year on Christmas Eve my parents and us 4 kids would get in the car and drive to Darrington, WA. My cousins and me always stayed up very late into the night playing pool or ping pong in my grandma and grandpas basement and come up stairs all frozen cause we were so cold. We always would play in the snow when there was snow and walk to the grocery store for my grandma in the summer time cause you could walk anywhere you wanted to in Darrington. I was always a grandpas girl no matter what it was I was doing wanted to be with him. My grandpa taught me so much in life taught me to drive a ride on lawn mower, how to work on a car, change the chain on a bicycle. He taught so much. I never thought I would ever lose someone so early in my life but when I was 12 grandpa died from skin cancer on my cousins 21st birthday. I thought I had lost like my best friend in the world. I loved my grandpa and after papa died things got worse for me. I fell into complete different life it seemed like. Started drinking when i was 13 snuck alcohol outta our fridge and went and drank the beer. I would go to school with rum and pepsi or rum and coke so the teachers wouldn't suspect anything. The police officer at my high school would come and talk to me and never did anything to me, never arrested me. I went to him one day and told him that I had been drinking and its my senior year, we just sat there and talked and talked for the longest time. He is like my best cop friend you could ever have. I promised him I wouldn't get arrested or nothing and yet I got arrested the year after I graduated from high school. The summer I graduated from high school I found out my uncle had pancreatic cancer. It was July of 2007 when I found that out. Next thing I knew it, it was October and my parents went to Oregon and the weekend I was suppose to go with them was the weekend we went to his funeral. After uncle died I started cutting. I thought everything was falling apart even more. First it was grandpa and then I lost 5 really good friends of mine from suicide and then it was my uncle. I knew one thing would make me happy is my niece and nephew being born. I never understood what was going on even at the age of 17. I started drinking all over again, so i was drinking, cutting and smoking. I started going out with this guy and he got me to start smoking weed with him and so I got hooked on that for a lil while and then I stopped doing that. The summer of 2008 the day before my sisters birthday I was arrested, and I don't want to get into details on that one. On March 3, 2009 I turned myself in and spent 12 days in jail and turned 20 in there. I made many mistakes in my past and now I live with them everyday from being physically and emotionally abused to being in jail. Now its 2010 and Im struggling to live a happy life cause all I feel is pain right now. I have hurt myself just recently and Im sorry that I let many of you down. I hide what Im truly feeling and hid what I want to really say but thre are many times when I just say "fuck this shit I'm just gonna say what I wanna say." I think Im going to conclude this now cause I am getting tired since I haven't slept yet. I have made my mistakes and now Im sharing some of them but I must admit that Im not perfect and I really don't think anyone is. When I moved last year to Indiana my biological mom acted like I wasn't even her daughter that I was more of a friend then anything. Then when I lost my job she kicked me out. I was like "what kind of person kicks there own kid pretty much to the curb when she has no where to go and no money?" Right now I'm Jesus (the live version of him) in the tomb with the rock over the door. Not knowing how to get out of it with help from two people who are trying the damnest to open it. I love you all! 

Sincerely,

Jerica Lynn Hoglund

soo i got my yearbook today and they look really great....they did two memorial pages,a dedcation, and a staff dedcation........my senior page turned out great.....and in the senior directory i didnt realize id done/won so much.......fccla, academic bowl, parenting student of the month, and technology student of the year....thats alot i think.....anyway id like to decdate me even getting this far and getting this yearbook and being a part of so much while in high school..so id like to thank my dad, my mom, and certain members of this site for helping giving me the strength to make it this far and get this yearbook and be on track to graduate..if that makes sense at all

 

 

*Dad: for helping my mom raise me and keeping the flames of the fire at bay so we could make it out alive..i know its not good to eb thinkign about that but lets face facts if he hadnt of kept those flames at bay i might not have got this yearbook today or done all i did...and i might not be writing this blog...so thanks dad i know you did the best you could...and i think you did a great job...i know your looking down on me from heaven....i knwo you would be so proud of me and how far ive come...i know i got my brains from you...

 

 

*Mom: for giving me the support i needed..and in a way being my rock after the fire and after dad died...for waking up  only cause of a smoke alarm......during the fire...and leading me and dad ans you to saftey....and for all these years you ahve made sure i was where i needed to be on time...and for all the support at every match i went to with acadmeic bowl...and for being at the touraments...even state this year.....i know you are so proud of how far ive come....and i appericate everything you have done for me......

 

 

*Mica: thanks for all the times you have been here for me when i needed someone to lean on....alos thanks for all the adivce and support ....thanks for being such a great friend...and thanks for recurting me onto this site....you are truly one of many blessings ive had from god.....you are truly one of a kind...and probally one of the greatest people i know...you mean the world to me..and also thanks for always trying to keep it postive in chat say

 

 

*Lea: thanks for all you do to keep this site running smoothly...i may not know you really well...but you do alot for everyone here....and i do appercate it

 

 

*Ed: just like lea you do so mcuh for this site...and i thank for that..you truly help to make this the best site chat site ont he wbe...and as a firefighter well you save lives and i think thats really a wonderful thing

 

 

*Cindy: thank you for your strength you give to thsi site...and thanks for all you do and may ahve done for me

 

 

*KK: where can i begin to thank you for how much youve blessed my life...you make me smile when i dont want to....you always have a way of makign me think psotive..and everyone else also...you make see things about life i may have never really thought about...you are truly one of my best friends on the site....i love you so much

 

 

*Aries: you are truly one of the most caring and nicest people i know.....youve always looked out for me..motivated me to work harder and do things ahead of time....youve helped me through good times and bad times....you bless everyones life who gets to know you..and i know your parents raised you right...youve also helped to teach me things i may have not thought about before....you are truly my big sister...and i dont think i could ask anymore from you

 

 

*Rodney: you define what it means to eb cool and you set a good example for everyone....i dont think i could ever thank you enough for all youve done to help me ..and i dont think i could ever give back all the strength and courage you have given me...if there is anyone i would think of as a 2nd dad it would have to be you

et this far

 

*Layna: youve given me steentgth and a friendship that could never be replaced...i thank you from the bottom of my heart

 

 

*All the other members new/old: you all have truly made a mark in my life...youve made me laugh you are what makes this site so great...and i thank you for that...and for all give me the strength

 

 

i think genrally if it wasnt for you guys and my mom and dad i dont think i would ahve won that heart-of-a-dragona ward i dont think i would have made it through high school either..my aprents and yall are truly amazing...yes i thought all of this up during 2nd block today...i jsut wanted to thank yall for the support,strength, and courage yall have given me...i know i am a better person for it..and i know yall and my parents are the main reasons im gonna walk that stage and get my diaploma..if there is any misspelled word im sry...once again i thank all of you from the bottom of my heart for helping me get this far...and i like i said yes one yearbook inspired me to write this whole blog..

Sometimes when you loose someone close you don't realize that their actually gone, that their never coming back. I have a hard time letting go of my grandma but I know with time, it will heal. I'm so scared but at the same time just want to hold on and never let go and appreciate and enjoy what I have in front of me before it goes away forever.

Having my son is the scariest experiece I've ever had but of course one of the most beautiful. I say it's scary because I fear of loosing him.. I don't think about this often but it's always going to be in the back of my mind. So, I concentrate on the good. His laughter, his smiles, his sweet kisses, everything. I love my baby boy so much.

 I've learned in my life if you love something, never give up on it. Appreciate the small things life has to offer - they matter most.

 I'm keeping an open heart, and an open mind because I want to give myself a chance. I know what I want. I'm holding on and I won't ever let go.

 

I do what feels right.

 

I won't settle for anything less than I deserve.

There is all kinds of sunsine in the air in oglc. The hearts of  the people in oglc is the sunshine of the world. heart and the sucnshine smiles on oglc is great because every day when u hit the doors of oglc it shines in every ones eyes with happyes.

 oglc is a geart for sunshing on u because when hitting the doors in oglc if you are  upset or in a bad mood  the hearts and the sunshine helps u get in a better mood  even if  it a random comment u would  get in a good mood because oglcs random comment are funny the loe and hearts and sunshine  love each and every one .

the sunshine is the girls and the hearts are the boys just so u would know. the end

 

by Ashley parker

I was with my friend Jessica and her 4 year old daugher Alaynah. We were stopped at a red light and this guy who was driving a van 2 cars behind us didn't stop, he swerved to miss the truck behind us and the truck was trying to move out of the way. They got hit by the van, which was going about 55 mph and it caused the truck to hit the van i was in with my friend Jessica. It hit the back of the van on the left side and broke the back tail light. Then the truck was pushed out of the way by the van, and the van hit my friends van going about 25 to 30 mph. i was freaking out becuz my friends 4 year old was in the very back of the Van. If that truck hadn't of been behind us then the can would have hit us goin 55 mph and it probably would have hurt Alaynah very bad. But she didn't see it coming and didn't tence up. So shes okay. But me and my friend Jessica saw it coming in the rearveiw mirrors and we tenced up our whole bodies. So my neck, left shoulder and left leg hurt really bad. And Jessica was hurting so bad that she had pain in her back and couldn't really move by 3:30am.

 

 

THEN! the dumb ass tried to say it was Jessica's fault. Then after that he tried to say a taxi hit him. But had no damage to his van. So then the prick tried to scratch his bumper to make it look like his car was hit. They arrested him. Thank goodness for that.

At one year here at OGLC:

I have seen many things, said many things, and done many things.

Met so many people that I now call my family<3

and..

Have grown to be the person you see today.

 

 

This site, the people on this site, have made me a better person.

i learn from u all each and every day.

Everyone has a story to tell and i enjoy listening,

and through those stories i gain wisdom and knowledge, 

and my perspective of things change.

I wanna thank you guys for accepting me the first time you guys met me.

And i wanna thank you guys for continuously allowing me to be apart of this family,

and apart of your lives, you all mean so much to me <33

 

                           - with love kk <33

Let's see who comes up with the best:

"You KNOW you are addicted to OGLC when...

Most of will not need an example. Let's watch the comments on this BLOG fill up. I am sure Lea will find a way to give out a consolatory prize. 

 

Thanks for chatting with  us!!!    ~OGLC Staff

 

 

 

 

 

Any new Members want to add to this blog...  feel free!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Life is too short and way too precious to HOLD grudges, and hold on to HATE...   Listen to John Lennon's "Imagine"..  then post a comment on this BLOG.

 

 

One Love ~ One Chat!!!!        ~OG

 

 

 

HI THERE IM ANIMALL, KNOWN AS DANNY TO FRIENDS. SOME OF YOU NO ME OTHERS DONT I HAVE BEEN GONE FROM OGLC FOR A LONG TIME. FOR MANY REASONS MAIN ONE HAS BEEN ME BEING SICK. WENT THRU A LOT OF TOUGH TIMES AND STILL HAVE TOO GET THRU A FEW MORE BEFORE IM TRULLY HEALTHY AGIAN. BUT THIS ISNT WHAT THIS IS ABOUT.THE LAST 12 MONTHS I HAVE HAD A LOT OF TIME TOO THINK ABOUT MY LIFE. LIKE AM I TRULLY HAPPY, AM I GOOD FRIEND AM I A GOOD SON ETC.THE SIMPLE ANSWER TOO ALL THESE QUESTIONS IS NO. SO ABOUT 5 MONTHS AGO I DECIDED TOO IMPROVE MY LIFE.I JUST GOT OVER WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME AND DIDNT LET IT TAKE OVER MY LIFE AND FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF AND BE ANGRY ALL THE TIME. LIFE IS TOO SHORT FOR THAT.ALSO OVER THE LAST 12 MONTHS I HAVE REALISED HOW MANY GOOD FRIENDS I HAVE. HOW THEY HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME WHEN I WAS AN ASSHOLE AND A DICK AND JUST WAITED ME OUT CAUSE THEY FELT I WAS WORTH IT.PEOPLE LIKE MICA, KATH, RACH AND ANGELA HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME ANYTIME I HAVE NEEDED THEM. EVEN WHEN I WASNT TALKING TOO THEM. YOU GUYS ARE TRULLY AMZING AND I WILL NEVER FORGET THIS.YOU GUYS HELPED ME MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER NO AND MADE ME FEEL LIKE I WAS WORTH SOMETHING AGAIN.I NOW NO WHAT IS REAL AND WHAT IS FAKE WAT IS WORTH FIGHTING FOR AND WAT IS NOT.PEOPLE LIKE YOU ARE TRUE INSPIRATIONS TOO ME AND MADE AN OLD MAN HAPPY AGAIN AND MADE ME FEEL WATVER HAPPENS TO ME YOU GUYS LOVE ME.I HOPE I CAN REPAY YOU GUYS FOR WHAT YOU DONRE FOR ME AND MORE.ITS JUST GUYS IN LIFE PPL WILL BE JEALOUS OR ENVIOUS OR JUST NOT HAPPY WITH THIER LIVES AND WILL TRY TOO BRING YOU DOWN. JUST BE YOURSELVES AND IF PPL DONT LIKE THAT FUCK THEM.IF YOU CAN SAY I LOVE MYSELF THEN NO ONE CAN EVER HURT YOU.ITS FUNNY IN A WAY CAUSE I FEEL BEING SICK IS THE BEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TOO ME I NEEDED TOO BE PUT IN CHECK CAUSE I WAS LOSING WHO I WAS BUT IM TRULLY HAPPY AGAIN AND AM LOOKING FORWARD TOO THIS YEAR AND MY TIME HERE ON OGLC.FINALLY ALL IM TRYING TOO SAY IS YOU HAVE TOO LOVE YOURSELF BEFORE YOU CAN TRULLY LOVE ANOTHER AND DO AND SAY WHAT YOU WANT AS LOBG AS IT MAKES YOU HAPPY AND DOESNT HURT OTHERS. SO MUCH LOVE FROM ANIMALL TOO MY OLD FRIENDS AND ALL THE NEW ONES I HOPE TOO MAKE.

My first week of classes back at the University of Southern Maine are almost through and I am drained. It takes a lot of skill and strength to jump back into classes after being away for months. The classes do not change, they continue at their same rate, often times however they build up speed until I can no longer tell how fast we are traveling. So forgive me, my loving readers, if I tend to get behind sometimes on OGLC and I need to get caught back up.

 

 

Let's see..this year my schedule consists of five classes. Since I would like you all to be able to follow me, I will list them as such:

 

 

Introduction To Sociology  9:30-10:45 Mondays and Wednesdays

 

 

Introduction to Feminist Perspectives  10:15-11:30   Tuesdays and Thursdays

 

 

Topics in Lit: Macbeth to Frankenstein      11:45-1   Tuesdays and Thursdays

 

 

Women, Welfare and The State       1:15-3:45         Tuesdays

 

 

Fiction Writing       7-9:30 Thursdays

 

 

So that is it...my schedule...I have just given all of you at OGLC free permission to stalk me. But alas it is only because I love all of you so.

 

 

I could sit here and rant on for days about how much I love all of you and how much you mean to me, to my soul, to my survival. But I know you are already aware of it. So for those of you who miss me and are inquiring about me, I am alright. I am just extremely busy and trying to sort out this mess I call my senior year.

 

 

Just remember one thing for me. Remember to ALWAYS stay OGLC. One Love One Chat. It isn't just a motto, it's a way of life. Continue to live it, spread the message of it, and love it as if it were your child. I can guarantee it will give more back to you then you ever thought possible.

 

 

Love Always.

 

 

Your Aries

 

 

Manda Marie

 

 

 

I've been thinking lately, just how grateful I am for OGLC.

There was a guy, about a week or so ago on Yahoo, literally BEGGING me to get naked for him... said if I did he would "do the right thing" and come from NY to see me.. and take me out to dinner. I was completely uncomfortable even just sitting on cam. I was completely covered, and I felt like he was tearing my clothes off with his eyes. I had to do what a smart person would do, which is end communication. I deleted and put him on my ignore list. Haven't talked to him since. 

The last time I felt like that, was probably months ago on a different chat site.. usachat. The people there were definitely the type to rip a person apart for even the smallest of things. Hell, my second day there it was my "initiation" to flash whoever was watching. The conversation I had on Yahoo definitely put things in perspective for me. 

OGLC really IS the place to be. Aside from close friends, outside of the chatroom, this is the only place I truly feel comfortable being on cam, and not have to worry about someone hitting on my insecurities. A place where I don't have to worry about being begged, or made to feel like a piece of trash if I don't do something that another wants me to. As many doubts as I had the first night I came here, they faded fast. 

You guys really are my second family. My second life-line. A home where I look forward to going. The amount of trust and respect that goes around, is amazing. I don't have to be fake, or hide anything. In every other place I've been to, I've always had to hide something, because of opinions. Not here.

I have no regrets of joining. I'm glad, and grateful for the moderator position I was given in May. I've taken it seriously since the night I got it. I might not always be in the lobby, but I'm always keeping an eye on things. 

For the new members, or people who haven't been around in a while: I urge you to stay, or come back on a regular basis. You won't be disappointed. This place, truly is, the place to be. OGLC <3

Keep it Wicked!

One Love, 

*~Mica~*

I literally just got home from work.

I log onto the site as usual.

To read a blog from Katherine ~aka~ KK.

Her words touched me, I felt the love she has for this site.

KK and Mica (sexy ass wicked ;] ) Were the first to make me feel apart of this site.

This site, this world, this culture, this family.

I may be rude, and very harsh, I may be opinionated, and I may have weird values.

But putting that aside, I love everyone I have met on here.

Everyone is unique, yet everyone on this site shares one common value.

That one love, the choice of being apart of this chat, this original chat, because there is only one chat like this on the planet.

That amazing admins, that live literally on this site, that deal with our crazy-asses. That get asked the same question a million times within the period of ten minutes, (Do you know why I couldn't log in? I think my password is broken D=!!) Yet they remain here strong.

To the mods who not only enforce the rules, but who are always there when you need an OGLC-fix. I sincerely thank the admins, and mods.

To Donna, Mica, KK, Manda, Brad,and whomever else promotes, I thank you for finding more great members, you know the more the merrier. :D I really appreciate, and I admire the dedication you all have for the site, and its progression.

To Marcus, Andi, Adamus, Jaime, Mr. Tx, Ed, Southern, and of Course the Original man himself: Rodney, and especially Danny, you men have become brothers to me, people I can depend on when I am having a rough day, I know I can get a smile on my face with you guys in the room, I love you, and you guys are amazing.

To anyone I forgot to mention, with a doubt be sure that I love you aswell.

Before OGLC I was ignorant, (Iggy is short for ignorance) But you have helped me grow into a man, a man with wisdom. There is not a moment in my day that I don't think about you guys.

Thank you Rodney for this site, for this home of mine, for this family.

I respect OGLC, I love OGLC, and I chat in OGLC. Soon I will bleed OGLC.

*Iggy*

So.. I know I haven't been on in a lil while, and when I do it's not that long. Again, dealing with a bunch of crap that's decided to weasel it's way to me. Some of you know that my relationship with Evil has taken a very drastic turn. It's been a month, and the amount of shit that's surrounded us is just immense. It's seriously testing my willpower, especially lately. I won't go into full details, but I will say that the trust between us has suffered a blow. There was a situation in where I was set up to believe he had someone in his life, and that two people who I'm close with were talking shit.. then told the next day that it was all a lie. Honestly, I dunno who else in the world would EVER have the patience to deal with it like I have. I'm sorta wondering whether I'm TOO good of a woman, sometimes. I kinda let things roll over me... and never handle it.. which is why I tend to get hurt. I guess I just need to write this to get a good rant out.. so here goes. I'm a good woman.. I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve.. and it gets trampled on a lot. I've had too much happen to me in the last two years... and I'm at the point where I feel the life is being sucked out of me. I have a tendency to fight until I have no strength.. it's all I've known my entire life.. it's all I know to do.. whether the situation is hopeless or not.. because if I give up.. I feel as if I've failed.. and a lot of 'what ifs' start to develop in my mind. Whoever I'm in a relationship gets treated like a king.. (or a queen if it's a girl) and I just kinda get whatever... sometimes I feel like that's all I'll ever get.. I give and get little to nothing in return. Despite my knowledge of this.. and the things that have been happening.. I still want to be with Evil.. to the point where I would walk across the damn country to even be with him.. just to look into his eyes and see what I need to see... to know what I need to know.. to move forward.. there's no one else that would do that.. no one has that much dedication and fight in them. I never told him this, but I would go to Mexico City with him.. if he in fact ever went back.. to see how he grew up.. meet his family.. learn more about his culture... how many others would do that.. this early on? I'm pretty confused about the whole thing.. I guess I'll have to wait it out.. and have a discussion at some point with him.. something has to be done. On another note... I was told just a few days ago that my dad tried to escape from prison.. five months short of his release. You'd think.. that after he'd been in prison on and off for the last 19 years.. five months wouldn't be anything to him.. now he won't get out until 2012. Personally, I don't feel sorry that he's in there.. he made his choices.. and besides, I haven't had anything to do with him since I was 12 years old. I don't even think he remembers my birthday.. much less how old I am. What does bother me.. is having to know that his actions reflect on me. Knowing that my dad's love for drugs and violence against women and kids is deeper than his love for his own children. Knowing that my youngest brother could possibly follow in these footsteps.. and end up screwing his entire future because he didn't have the guidance. I've luckily overcome it.. but not all kids can... and I haven't seen him in the same amount of time.. eight years.. he probably doesn't even remember who I am.. or what I look like.. and it's sad.. I have days where I want to see him at least one more time.. and tell him that he's above all of that.. tell him what I never got told.. that the high isn't worth the pain to your family... cause I was there.. I went through it for sixteen years with my mom.. now 20 with my dad.. it brought nothing but pain and did nothing but create broken relationships and separation due to jail time. Somehow through all of this... I'm staying as strong as I can.. and not resorting to old habits.. I'm holding on to what I know.. and what I believe.. and the people that have held me up.. So to those of you (and you know who you are) that have been taking the time to listen to me vent about this... and keep me levelheaded when I feel like I'm breaking.. I want to say that I love you, and I'm grateful for every moment we've had.. you've touched my heart.. and however I can make it up.. I will. To everyone that reads this... I will be okay.. and I'm gonna change things around. I'm gonna be around in OGLC more.. I have a job to do.. despite whatever gets thrown at me.. I have a family I've been neglecting.. but no more.. I love you all.. and thanks for listening. 

Keep it Wicked,

-Mica <3

 

where you at ??? ogs here and hes starting the 4th of july celebration off with a brand new contest .show us how much you love OGLC and bring your frind to check out the coolest site on the internet!!! what do you have to do to win the contest you say well its easy ....

1. invite everyone you know that has a computer ok even some you dont know ...

 

2 have them make a profile

 

3 have them comment on this blog that you told them about the site .. (its easy copy and paste a link to the blog on their profile as soon as they join .)

 

for ever commnet that says you brought them you get a point you must bring at least 5 to be able to win .. but 5 is easy  ask for help we can tell you the secrets ..

added bonus if you have an ipod og will give you gift cards or anothe rprize for the same amount ...

even better ... if you win and you have 25 new profiles you will win a $25 gift card with your shuffle  if you get 50 $50 card f you 100 members ill make sure you get youri pod suffle and a $100.OO gift card or we will have og buy you a bigger i pod !!! but you only have till sunday midnight easter standard time ..

first person with 5 new members gets a 10.00 i tunes gift

so show your love and win a prize ...its easy as that .. lets see whos the oglc elite!!!

contest runs from 12 mid night sunday ngith till next sunday july 5th midnight est

NIC'S LIST!

1. Get a stranger to give you a pen to keep
2. Start a convo with some one you dont know
3. Get a girls phone number
4. Write a song about ELVIS!
5. When you go down the street say hi to eveyone you walk past
6. If you buy a pack of smokes put holes in them
7. Light somes smoke for them
8. wink at girls (no matter how old) - for three days
9. Show an old person you dont know photos of Vegas and tell them about your trip
10. Open and clost doors for everyon. - for 2 days
11. Speak in a pommy accent for one day and if anyone asks you what you are doin play dumb... like you dont know what they are talkin about
12. Get some one to sign you
13. Ask a group of random people if you can hang with them for the day
14. Find a good recipe and cook dinner one night and dont say why you did it
15. Go to a park and sit on a bench and talk to your self for ten mins - about people you see and what they are wearing!

Now how fun with that and ill talk to you later! anyone got anythin else to add! well then just leave a comment! thanx and good luck NICHOLAS! ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

Love RoSsY

So this is a blog..from the inside..of hell. I am stuck in a house with four people who would rather argue and scream at each other then show any affection whatsoever. The idea that these people are my family is what pisses me off more. How did I end up here? How are these people even related to me? Granted two of them are not blood related but still. What kind of situation did I put myself into? For those of you who have met me, and even if you have not, you know I'm a loving person. I love to tell others how much they mean to me and how much I love them. Now imagine being put in an environment where this does not happen. Where material things are valued over actual love. Where people bicker and argue more then they give hugs or compliments. I NEED TO GO HOME!! And I will, later tonight. I'll go back to Mechanic Falls where I belong, pour myself a niceeeeee longggg drink, and wait for Santa. That definetely sounds like a plan.

Anyway, enough of me ranting. I would like to wish each and everyone of you guys the best Christmas you could possibly have. Please remember your family and tell them how much you love them. I know from experience that a human being can never hear this enough. Just to hear that people love and cherish you is enough of a Christmas present for me. :):)

So all of you crazy OGLC peeps out there, I LOVE YOU!! Each of you impact my life so greatly on a daily basis. I wouldn't be who I am without you!! MUAH MUAH MUAH!!

Manda AKA Aries

Merry Christmas!!    Happy Hanukkah!!     Happy Kwanzaa!!    Feliz Navidad!! And the rest!!!

 

 

 Um Hi, I don't Normally do this but Justy has commanded me to do it so here I am. I am Taylor  and I am Justy's boyfriend of some 8 years. Now I know there has been a great deal of contraversy surrounding Justy and that he has made some mistakes. But to be honest hes doing well considering the boy we are talking about.

To understand who Im talking about lets just start with his name Justin we call him Justy however...dont ask why I've been calling him that since he was 11.

Justy Is 18 (so am I).

Justy is 5'1 (I'm 6'2)

Justy is about 100 pounds sopping wet. (I'm roughly 170 or so)

Justy has short blonde hair green eyes, and closely resembles a 12 year old.

He never really physically matured he lost his leg in a car accent, and hes naturally really small always has been. (I just got bigger)

Now Life is made up of moments that change your Life forever and Justy's life changed forever when he was 11. Now before the accident Justy was pretty much typical. He was on a baseball team he rode his bike went to school. All the normal stuff, well His Mom was starting him out in a little modeling career He did some work for hanes modeling underwear which made all the kids at school call him "Just-in-Underpants" When people started seeing him on packages of underwear.

All that came screeching to a halt one day when Justy's family his Dad his Mom and Justy went to wal-mart in his Moms Malibu. (awful car) Their car was struck by a drunk driver doing twice the normal speed limit. (Justy went to go see the Driver in Prison, a few years back, and forgave him, such is the nature of Justy, he was worried the drunk driver felt bad.) His Dad was driving when the Pick-up our DD was driving plowed into the passenger side of the Malibu and pretty much destroyed it. Justy's Mom was killed Instantly, His Dad was severely injured. As for Justy, his leg was destroyed utterly. after a helecopter ride to the airport and a great deal of effort they managed to save his life.

So lets put ourselves in Justy's place you just woke up in a hospital surrounded by Doctors, Your Grandmother is standing over you with a worried expression and you cant feel your leg. Which you realize is now gone, your wearing a diaper, (Justy had some severe damage in that area that took years to heal, he wasnt right completely until he was about 13) And his first question is Wheres Mom? When his grandma burst into tears at that point things kinda fell apart. The Days and weeks that followed after this get kinda hazy for everybody but some weeks later Justy was moved to a rehabilitation hospital to learn how to walk again on a prosthetic and try to piece together some asemblance of a normal life.

So In this Rehabilitation hospital Justy Met Me. I mean when I first saw him cart himself into the Kids area where we hung out at the hospital I just wanted to die. No Really, I had just gotton out of a burn unit (any burn victims here? it isnt fun. Ever had a skin graph?)

Anyway My story begins with a house fire I was making a Tony's pizza, In the kitchen and my sister was helping Something went wrong the stove was leaking gas some how, There was a big explosion, My sister was killed, she was my twin and we were extremely close even now its hard to write this but her name was Ariana, and she was beautiful. The Fire consumed our house like a roman candle. My Dad came home to Towering blaze and us in the Hospital....I spent Months in recovery. I have burns across my chest and upper arms.

So many skin graphs and other fun stuff later...Me and Justy met. Now I was REALLY depressed, I had lost my best friend in the world my Dad was at an utter loss of what to do he lost his job, We were pretty much living in the hospital and swiftly running out of money beacause of Towering medical expenses. Justy and I got along great from the start we were both walking basket cases the same age, it was pretty much inevitable. My Dad had gone looking for work and my Mom went down to the cafeteria so I decided YUP 3am perfect time to go see Justy! (rational thought was not my specialty at this point) So I literally snuck down to the room Justy was in, it was just down the hall...Of course I found him wide awake reading a book. Where I made the announcement I was lonely. Justy then announced

"I need a shower, can you help?" Now when your 11 gay and straight doesnt really exist boys dont think that way and there was nothing sexual in this at first it just sort a happened...Justy couldnt stand he needed a shower so I helped him get one he had his arms around my neck and I looked into his eyes and then well I kissed him....alot...for like an hour. or 2? It was fun? Anyway a nurse pulled back the courtain and screamed. she scared the crap out of us and told us to get out of there and all this...then Justy's Grandma showed up.

Explaining Grandma: She's an an old Hippie who DID attend Woodstock (all of them) and is a very free thinking person who drives a hot pink 1969 hemi Charger she is not what you call your typical grandmother and she pretty much RULES the farm and anyone who argues with her finds out in short order how exactly WRONG they are and thats pretty much that.

Now Grandma (everyone calls her that  (or else) Had a little chat with my mother and at which point they formed the Justy and Taylor protection society. They promptly delt with the hospital staff and ensured we would never be seperated by moving me in with Justy :)

Then theres Grandpa who had a little chat with my father explaining to him that he would be contacted by Grandpa's lawyer who would explain to him his insurance policy and sell him a great deal of land where he would be building his new house (on grandpas front lawn)

And he is to start his new Job managing a farm on Monday, And that was pretty much that my Father pretty much stood there spluttering helplessly as he was swept off in a wave of Justy'ness.

Once we got out of the hospital Justy and I moved in together on the farm In Justy's New room in the main house while my family lived next door in their new house :) Which my mom loves btw.

Anyway Going to school proved disasterous due to my habit of Taking mine and Justy's clothes off at odd moments. So we were home schooled after 7th grade by Grandma who is a former school teacher and is simply brilliant. I graduated at 17 Justy at 16.

Justy has a photographic memory he is good at history math english and science but he is terrible with people. He grew up rather isolated. Justy and I took ten of our closest frends and home schooled everybody right here on the farm In that school it was perfectly okay to show up to class in your PJs or worse. We kind of formed our own unique society. So our people skills are terrible in normal society.

Justy isnt exactly normal ether, He suffers from bi-polar he gets bouts of depression and hes an epileptic, hes on depakote and one of the main purposes of having him in this chat is to help his people skills if it can. Sometimes hes gonna make a mistake or two but he will be REALLY appologetic the next day especially if someone is mad at him. It Really upsets him. . It isnt easy but he is trying.

So, Until next time, on his behalf I beg a little Patience from the patrons in the chat, he is a bit Crazy but he has a really big heart and he loves unconditionally if you let him. He is a little bit nuts on Pokemon, but thats justy for you.

Until next time,

Taylor.

 

Alrighty, so...

Here's kinda the run down on the concert, and some other things...

Amy picked me up around 4:30 or so,

and we managed to go grab a bite to eat at McDonalds before we met up with her boyfriend Aaron.

Once we got to the visitor parking where his apartment was, he's not even ready.

He gives us directions, and we make our way over to the student center to find where it is.

-We got semi lost, but thankfully have good ears lol!-

We're walking around, and see all the booths for like the Army, free prizes, etc.

There's even an inflatable rock climbing thing from Six Flags. (She wanted to, I didn't)

The first band was a little odd, I don't remember their name.

2nd one was called I Fight Dragons, they were pretty sweet.

(Used old Nintendo controllers for their special voice effects :D)

During this time, Amy was asking Aaron if he was still coming,

basically because we wanted to make sure. He flipped out.

So we're both kind of upset, but he shows up right after Travie McCoy comes on.

Right away, he's having a complete bitch fit. I didn't wanna hear it.

Before 3OH!3 starts their set, he randomly asks "What do you think about immigration?"

I'm like "Well, might as well let them in. They'll come anyhow."

He starts an entire debate with me, and when Amy mentioned Evil, he was grilling me.

Like, who the hell are you!??!?! I was heated, and I squashed the conversation.

I texted Evil after that, and about cried, I seriously wanted to just leave.

(Not to mention I've been hella missin the boy lately)

Then Amy wants to go to the restroom,

I figured I'd stay and keep our place, since we couldn't half see at the moment anyhow.

Aaron, still in smartass mode goes "If you're not here, I get to punch you."

In the middle of my texting, I stare at him and say

"You punch me, we WILL have problems. Don't try me."

He mumbles something about thinking it's a fair deal. I ignore him,

then mention to Amy that I'm missing Evil and anxious to leave for Vegas...

Once 3OH!3 starts, I'm focused more on the concert, and getting pictures.

They're all over each other, and I'm feeling the 'third wheel' awkwardness.

The set was pretty awesome, they opened with "Starstrukk."

-Will have pics up on Facebook/Myspace soon!-

Then we finally went to the student center so Amy could do what she needed to do.

Aaron's talking to some of his roommates, and I'm standing there like 'whatever.'

Then he wants food, I'm kinda antsy to get back to the concert area.

Amy asks, I just reply with 'You lead, I follow,' and we go to the cafeteria area.

When we finally get to the grounds, they're still setting up, and we're takin a couple pictures.

I did the "R" for rebel (Pumas thing) with my hands in a few of them,

and naturally, he had to pipe up about it.

During Cobra Starship's set,

he completely pisses Amy off, in turn turning my annoyance into rage.

However, instead of starting drama with him (being the bigger person),

I simply rub Amy on the back and give her a 'it will be okay' look.

We left to catch the bus before they came out to do "Good Girls Go Bad" for an encore.

Then it was off to Wal Mart for Amy and I

for last minute shopping, as usual.

The concert itself was pretty badass.

I just wish I could have skipped Mr. Drama Queen's remarks,

it very much so put a damper on things.

About the Evil thing,

it's honestly gettin harder and harder to hide the fact I can't stand being here.

Truth: if you ever see my cam disappear, but my mic stay up, it's cause I'm emotional.

I'm really just tryin to stay level headed and get everything together.

Soo.. once again...

Thanks for listening to the rants of Mica..

Love you all :)

 

 I pray that we become closer and closer as a family united.

I pray that we connect on a deeper and more spiritual level.

I pray that we appreciate and accept each other.

I pray that we love and support each other through thick and thin.

I pray that we not take each other for granted.

I pray that we put judgments aside and truly listen to one another.

I pray that we understand that we are family for a reason
and that we take advantage of that reason.

I pray that we forgive and forget any and all past hurts that we have caused each other,
even if we didn’t intentionally hurt the other.

I pray that we always have good intent when talking and sharing
information with each other.

I pray that we are totally honest with each other and will
not walk on egg shells at the expense of ourselves.

I pray that we really get to know each other and that we show interest
in each other’s lives.

I prayer that we be open to each other’s point of view
especially when that point of view does not match our own..

I pray that we put all of our past struggles and lack of communication behind us
and go forward in a more positive, open, honest, and loving way.

Only 5-6 more weeks to go until im out of high school. I can name aloot of memories ive had from all the trips ive went on to the parenting class i took. Ive also met alot of people in my life some have left it some have stayed in it for along time....whitney and riah have stayed where as some other people have not. And im fine with that becuase its their loss not mine. I know everything ive done and everything that has happened to me has happened for a reason and all of it has made me stronger and better. Id have to say though that out of all ive done, seen and all that has happened to me, out of all the mmeoires ive had and made. The one tht is proving everyday to be th ebest thing that has happened to me was when i was on jtv and a woman named mica aka wicked found me and recurited me to this site. Why is that the best memory or best thing that has happened to me?..well its because this site has made me who i am today. How? well lets see here i was always afarid to get on webcam cause i thought i was fat, ugly or whatever else, OGLC changed that by giving me the strength to get on a webcam everytime im on here without fear of what people may call me. How else? well before this site people always picked me on me in the online called me alot of nasty things. OGLC gave me a family and some of my bestest friends that dont treat me as bad as others have. How else? well its just mad me a stronger and better and sweeter person all around. Ive never had to worry since i joined oglc abotu being kicked out cause people didnt like me. On OGLC i am very loved and cared for and noone ahs ever picked on me here.

 

 

There are some people id like to thank. Rodney thanks for always being like a 2nd dad to me and thanks for creating and making this site. Next off i thank you mica for tellling me about this site. Thanks to all the mods and admins for always looking after everyone in the chatrooms.  Thanks to manda for always being like the big sister i never had.Thanks to the members who make this site stronegr and better everyday.

 

 

Finally just a thank you to everyone for giving me a site where i feel safe, am never picked on, and am very welcome. I thank each and everyone of yall for alays being there for me the ugly in my life. Thanks for just being some of the best friends and family i ahve (besides my really family and friends off the net).Just thank you everyone. I want you all to know you each have a speical place in my heart and that i love yall very much and care about yall very much. Thanks for this 2nd home to me.

 

 

~~one love~one chat~~

 

 

 

 

 

-Jamie G

Here I am. Here of course is my dorm room. My Toshiba is sitting in front of me and I, Amanda Marie Sessions(By Birth) Brown( By heart and choice) am writing a blog. The blog at this point is to apologize I think. I haven't been around much. School has taken up some of this time but I think conflicts with my own life and mind have led me away for a bit. My membership, and my mod status, is so very important to me and I cannot wait to come back and spend time fuilfilling my passion and my duties to the site.

 

 

Now that being said..I think I also want to send love to all of you. Members new and old continue to inspire me. Everytime I see one of your faces, whether it be in a fast moving picture or a fuzzy web cam, I smile a little inside. Your faith and devotion to the site, to our home, gives me strength. I wish I could be nearly as strong and steadfast as I see so many of you are being. Whether it be personal issues or demons from your past, you never let it affect the goal of the site. We are here to be united as one. We are here for a common goal. We are here to FOREVER live as the elite. Powerful in the eyes of those who would sooner kick us to the ground and spit in our faces. We look them in the eyes and demand to know why they think they are better and continue to share the values and lessons we learn from our beloved OGLC.

 

 

So for all of you who have missed Aries, if you have, let me send this little piece of advice. A kind and caring best friend of mine once said that "people only hate on you because they see something in you that they wished they had. If they keep talking, then people will always know your name." So with every blog you post, I am there. With every video made, I am there. I cannot thank all of you for fueling my love with your own devotion. It is helping to push me through to the end so that I myself know what I am capable of.

 

 

Always Remember. One Love One Chat. It's all about the respect.

 

 

Aries Out.

So, I got my ACT scores back today and honestly it upset me.

The score i got was less then I had hoped for.

I'm mad and disappointed at myself.

I worried so much about it for this very reason and my fears are now confirmed.

And to be honest I have no idea why i freaked so bad about them to begin with,

besides I, myself wanting the satisfaction of doing better than my dead beat brothers,

and making my mom proud of me.

I'd love to make my dad proud, but i know thats never gonna happen...

I try so hard and never reap the benefits I'm looking for.

Sometimes it makes me sick, 

Maybe I should stop trying so hard to see the benefits..

<3

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Greetings everyone to my very first Blog.
Don't know what to really write here but, I'm sure I will just spill my random thoughts here time to time.

Been here for almost a week and already loving it. It's the people here that makes it great. I've been to many sites/guilds in my years and always tried to find a friendly place.
Although I've been successful in finding such things but, I usually end of leaving since I felt like you cant really fit in with people who been there for far much longer then you. If that makes any sense. Point is, that isn't the case here. Haha.
Moving on.

One of the few things you will find out about me is that I'm a huge gamming nerd. And I'm damn proud too. Lol. As long as I can remember, I always had a game system and stuff.
And so looking for what this month has to offer, its looking very good for gamming nerds.

God of war 3 is coming out on the 16th I believe. For the Ps3.
I've been a big fan since the first one came out. If you own a ps3 system, get this game. Lol. It looks beautiful, they have really outdone themselves.

Pokemon GH/SS comes out on the 14th.
Hate them or love them, pokemon is going to sticking around for quite some time.
These are remakes of the original Gold and silver versions. Upgraded grapics, new stuff and all on the Ds systems. These were the 2nd generation of the pokemon series. One of my fave. Can't wait to play these solid rpg games.

Big news: Dsi XL
This new system in the Ds series is coming out on the 28th? The screens are suppose to be 93% bigger then the Dsi, better sound, and looks good for mature gamers. I traded in my old Dslight towards this one. Now I wont have to worry about my hands covering the screen. Lol

And that only lists a few.

College. I'm planning on going this summer. I really need to get my ass to fill out the papers and everything before its too late. Just been to lazy. Lol.
Dad says I will meet people if I go and when I get a job(kinda sorta looking for one) but mehh...I'm a real shy person in person and I avoid making eye contact with anyone. So, talking to others while im there taking some classes, don't seem possible for me. Lol

Hmm...
Its finally getting warmer here, I'm glad. It's been so cold. x.o
It will be nice to reopen the pool again and chill out there.

Had a online friend confessed her feelings towards me the other day. Its awkward between us now since I rejected her offer. Maybe in time we can get back to being friends like I just wanted in the first place? Not really sure. Oh well, what can you do, ya know?
It was a onesided feeling and also I'm not really interested in looking for someone, online nor real life.
This summer I will be single for 5 years now, although I cant really say that's a good thing but, I'm happy with it and looking forward for that number to rise.
Lol that just reminded me of something.

My father thinks I'm gay since I don't chase after women like he did when he was my age(from stories I heard, didn't have a choice. Lol) He asked me 3 times now if im into women. That makes me laugh.
When have we gotten to that point as a society where it seems if you want to show off your masculinity you need have someone in bed with you?
It's a bit sad really.
Even though I never got passed kissing someone, I feel no need to compare myself to others who have and think that they are better because of that.

Well on that note of tmi, I will end this post.
If anyone actually does read this, please post a comment.
I would appreciate it,
Sage

 

Yes. Most Definetly. Absolutely. Positively. Si. 

This year has been nothing but let downs, heartache, and death.

I want a fresh start to my life, and that starts with 2010.

It will be differant. I'm gonna make damn sure of it.

I'm not holding back and I'm not gonna settle for less than what I deserve.

 

 

The only thing good about this year was joining a chat site that is loving, understanding, and my family without a doubt.

Oglc is my home,

is my rock,

A place I can come to and feel loved,

And can always be happy at.

I love u all, and happy new years

 

 

<3Katherine; kk.

Do you ever have one of those days, where nothing goes ur way?

And you feel like your not good enough for anyone?

And you feel like all the worlds burdens are hitting you at once, everyone blames there problems on you,

And you dont know why?

After so much, you cant take anymore and want all of it to be over with...

But thats when you gotta pick your head up and keep going,

When your at you lowest everyone wants to see you fail, wants to see you crash and burn.

Well cruel world,

...your not that lucky...

HI MY OGLC FAMILY!!!

So here's the deal. I went into the hospital today and I was scared. Though it is a simple surgery it is still a surgery removing an internal organ. So there is a right to be afraid. After I spent 20 minutes waiting for the nurse to come prep me, someone came in and informed me that I would not be having surgery today due to the fact that I had been admitted into the emergency room a week previous. Admitted for a gallstone attack that had me doubled over in pain and thinking of taking out the damned organ myself.

So I entered the waiting room after this, feeling slightly defeated. I informed my mom and daddy of what happened. For all of you who know my Daddy, y'all can probably guess what happened next. As my daddy was giving the nurses a verbal kick in the ass, I was sitting beside my sister, afraid of more pain and wanting to finally get on with my life. After my parents came back into the waiting room, we waited another hour for my surgeon to show up so we could talk to him.

While talking to my surgeon, it was revealed that what I was diagnosed with in the emergency room (a simple UTI) was in fact an inflamed gallbladder. The reason I had high white blood cell count and was having pain was because my gallbladder was growing larger and irritating my liver. This caused the gallbladder to be inflamed and me to experience extreme pain. However, my surgeon had no idea I had been to the emergency room in the first place even though i had seen one of his surgical associates while I was there. ALSO the emegency room never told him they saw me AND they filled out my chart incorrectly. So needless to say I made the right decision to go to the emergency room though it may not have seemed it. If I had just stayed at home my inflamed gallbladder would have gone unnoticed. And I might have been bleeding on a table right now instead of talking to you all.

So to make a long story relatively short my surgery has been postponed til Thursday. So until then I must keep my head up and keep being the strong and sure individual I know I am. And besides i DO have a kickass Daddy :D

I also want to thank all of you for the comments you left on the blog for me. I cannot express how much OGLC and its members means to me. You all are my family. I live, eat, sleep and breathe for you all every single day. I want to make OGLC a home for every one of you and make you feel welcome into my life and my home. You are my people. Lea you are an angel and you know I truly do love you. If I can be half the person you are while I am growing up then I will know I did something right.

I love you all. Don't ever let haters or anyone else slow you down. Reach for your dreams guys!!

One Love One Chat

Manda AKA Aries

Are you a talented member of the OGLC family?

Wanna show off your leet skills?

This is the perfect opportunity to show off what you are passionate about.

Any talent that you have to bring to the table is welcome...sing for us, play an instrument, dance your heart out, perform a skit, do some stand up comedy, show off your artwork,..hell, if you have an interesting way of picking your nose, that's wecome too.  Thats right, ANYTHING.

This event will be held on Wednesday, July 15 at 8 pm eastern time in the artist"s lounge.

THERE WILL BE PRIZES TOO

 

If you are interested in joining in on the festivities, please comment on this post what you're planning on doing at the show.

Even if you aren't planning on showing off your talents, you are more than welcome to join in on the fun.

Watch out for more info on this event in the near future.

 

 

Hope to see you there!

Can anyone else not get into chat?

It keeps saying something like 'group name error'

Sunday Sunday Sunday !!!!!!!

were celebrating all the love of OGLC!!!

come one come all and celebrate all that we love about OGLC, wear your sexy reds and meet us Sunday night .. (what else is there to do on Sunday night ?)

were gonna hang out hopefully fill some rooms get some new members this is a great night to stop in if you havent been around lately and you miss your friends!!! we sure miss you !!!!  

 were working on some games and prizes for sure !!! and well you never know if we hit 600 theres gonna be more surprises so get on your networking sites and let everyone know where your gonna be on Sunday night  8 pm est till the sun comes up .. or longer ...  

 OG will announce his big surprises for the site and our big valentine form him to all of us .. so be here ... when it all goes down ..

dont for get to get involved in all the contests going on now read the contest blogs and ..

a reminder the 100 profiles contests is still going on first one to 100 gets a game system of their choice  !!!!!

 contest totals so far will be posted but heres a great way to get started from now till Sunday at midnight for every new guest you bring over and have make a profile you get 2 points and for every guest they bring you get 1 point ..

they must comment here on this blog that you sent them and they must make a profile same rules go for who ever they bring it must be a new member and that new member must comment  who sent them the only way points count is if the person posts ... we will tally the points for you if you get extra points but you must have the original person you brought comment ..

as always we hope everyone works together on this and if we hit 600 by Sunday there will be more prizes!

 dont forget who ever is the 600th member to register  will get 10 points in the contest and the person that sent them to the site will get 10 also .. great way to catch up on those members that have points already !!!! good luck .. and if you have any questions .. just ask .. good luck .. spread the love of OGLC!!!!!

Certain things trigger certain memories.

 

I go through so many memories in one day it is rediculous, 

Most of them i wish i could keep burried, an impossible task...

But i still wish...

 

In my life...

The bad memories out weigh the good. 

But i wouldnt change my past and life, for the woman i have become.

 

Sometimes i wish life was like a fairy tale or a movie and some amazing man

Would come into my life and wisk me away and the rest of my life would be magical.

This isnt a movie.

Nor is it a fairy tale.

Its real life and the world is a cold, cruel bitch.

 

 

 

 

I thought I would do a few shout outs cause there are a few people that I dont think I have really ever thanked for things that I have gone on since I have been on OGLC. 

 

OGLC Family: Thank you for everything. You are amazing and I love you. If you guys weren't in my life I don't know what I would do without you. You have gotten to be the most energetic, uplifting, crazy ass and loving bunch of people I have ever met. You all look after one another no matter what is going on it seems like. Thank you for that. We all have exchanged stories on here and its fun and interesting to hear what stories there are out there.

 

OG Rod: Rod you are amazing! I love you man!!!! When I first met you on OGLC I was like who the hell is this guy? I remember us talking in a PM and we just talked for a long while. It felt like I had known you for so long. Thanks for making me feel like I belonged in OGLC. I remember you, babydamiensmama, danny and I all had a talk one night and that was the hardest night I think I have ever had to deal with while on OGLC. You showed me truth on that night. You kept asking me one question over and over. It took me a few to answer it but I finally did. "My nephew smiles at me cuz he knows I'll never leave him" Remember that Rod? I remember you telling me that OFLC will never leave me. that it was more of my choice of whether or not I wanted to be on it or not. I stayed on because of you and now I'm taking a break for reasons that you know. Everytime you come on you have a smile on your face that puts a smile on my face. You are amazing and I can't wait to actually meet you in person. Thanks for all the talks we have had Rod. They have truly helped me out a lot. You helped me through the thing with Justin and now  you help me through every day.

 

Kyle: KYLE F-IN CARPENTER I LOVE YOU! I remember the very first night we talked and it wasnt even on OGLC. Talking to you with Anna. That was the most fun I think I have ever had. You were one of the first people on this site that I think really welcomed me. You are an amazing friend and I absolutly love you. That night was the most laughing I think I had ever had laughed. Now we are on OGLC together and we pick on one another and just have a lot of fun with one another. You're amazing thanks friend for everything. Before I joined OGLC we would talk on facebook and have serious conversations at times even on msn messenger. I miss those conversations but I'm glad you are in my life.

 

Mica: OMG JACKASS!!! LMAO! I love being able to just have this deep conversations with you. You and I have gone through so much of the similar things in our life. You have shown me so much since I have started talking to you. You are the most amazing and talented and sweetest girl I think I have ever known. I will never forget you no matter what happens in my life. You are definitley one of my many inspirations in life. Girlie if you can keep your head up I will keep my head up. We will be both me sad or feeling down and within minutes of us talking on the phone we are laughing and smiling and having a good time

 

Joe: My OGLC husband lol.... Joe I could say so much about you but I dont know how to describe everything. You have been I think the best person since you have been on OGLC. You and me have so many conversations and sometimes we go most of the night. I can say that the conversations we have had, some of them were hard to talk to you about but I still had managed it somehow. You and Bill both have gotten me through some stuff. Most of it was a reminder cause I had forgotten about it. You have virutally kicked my ass so many times that I cant count how many times you have. You have held my hand and stood by my side the last month and a half and I'm so  grateful that I have met you. You are beyond awesome and thank you so much for everything you ahve done for me. You may be younger then me but you are definitly my guiding light to things. While writing this I'm trying not to cry but its hard. You have seen me happy, sad, tipsy, if not drunk, and you have seen me just content, and tired also. You have always stood there and never walked away even when there were times I was sure you would just get up and walk away. You have even become part of Peytons life. As she says or asks me, "Where's gogo? Gogo where are you?" Love you friend! 

 

Danny: you are one of them. You make me speechless and not knowing what all to say you are just full of light. You are a true fighter and I'm grateful for that cause you have taught me to be a fighter even when I didn't think that I could be one. You have taught me not to give up on anything no matter what it was to keep fighting for it. You and me have had many heartful and heartbreaking conversations and I have cried in many of them but you my friend are really one of my heros cause you are fighting for so much right now in life. You have done so much. You have made me smile and laugh within minutes even if I didnt even wanna be laughing or smiling. Thats how great you are. I love my Irish danny!!! Please dont ever give up on fighting Danny cause if you give up I'm bound to give up. I need to fight my battle and fight these giants. You need to do the same too. Love u my irish buddy!

 

I'm gonna close cause I'm crying and its already 4:20 am and I wanna try and get maybe some sleep if I can. Peace, love and Joy, I love you all even if I didnt say nothing about you I love you all. 

 

PS: Raych, ROADDDDD TRIPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!! AND LOVE YOU :D

PSS: Marissa I'm so excited you're in WA now yay!! I'll come visit you for sure before I leave for Illinios.

My OGLC Family,

Hello! I'm writing to you cause you all need to know what is somewhat going on with Jerica. Some of you already know but many of you don't. Writing this isn't the easiest thing for me right now either so bear with me please.

First off I would like to say that I love you all! You\'re an amazing crew you have held me together hard core to be honest. I have wanted to leave a few times cause of struggles that have been going on but I never have left you. I have stayed on for quite a few of you. Its been hard the last month and a half but you have made me laugh, cry, and let me have fun with you. I don't know what I would've done without you. You all make me happy! With this bunch you can be crazy, be yourself but mostly you can say almost anything and not be judged with what you say. I can mostly say that with you all I have been more crazy and a Jerica that never would've done anything stupid in high school. You have gotten me to come outta my shell more and more almost every time I get on this site. With this family I have been able to not only consider you as my family but also have notice that I love you guys more then I love my real family to be honest. I don't know what I would do without you guy's. I have been able to not only have fun but also be myself without being afraid to show the real Jerica.

Second off I want to thank you. Some of you know my past more in detail then in the very first blog I wrote. But those of you who know all the details I thank you for still accepting me into OGLC. I may have gone through a lot of pain from being abused, sexually assaulted and sexually harassed but you accepted me for it. When I first joined to be honest I didn't know what would happen only cause well I was a newbie and only really knew Kyle. Kyle knew about my past a lil bit and I knew that I would eventually become really close to at least one other person if not a few of you and we would end up talking and end up talking about my past. I was right that did happen. As I continued to talk to a few of you I realized that it was ok if everyone knew about it. I am still broken but you all have caught me from falling. You accepted me and welcomed me even though nothing was perfect. Thank you for accepting me into OGLC! <3

Third off, for those of you don't know I have something called Bronchospasm. You are probably like what the hell is that. Well I'll tell you. According to healthscout.com it says this about Bronchospasm...Bronchospasm is a temporary narrowing of the bronchi (airways into the lungs) caused by contraction of the muscles in the lung walls, by inflammation of the lung lining, or by a combination of both. This contraction and relaxation is controlled by the autonomic nervous system. When bronchi become obstructed, greater pressures are needed to push air through them in order to meet the body's requirement for oxygen. This requires greatly increased muscular effort. Breathing during bronchospasm requires more effort than normal breathing..... About a week ago I was having trouble breathing and also coughing to the point where I was vomiting. I was stubborn and didn't want to go to the doctor but I took Joe's advice and went into the ER. I didn't like being there but I was able to figure out what was wrong with me. I ended up getting 2 chest x-rays. They told me everything was ok with the chest x-rays. I didn't wanna believe them cause I was still hurting from it but they're doctors they know what they are talking about. I am ok now or so I believe I am but bronchospasm might not go away. I have had it for a while now and just now figuring out that I have it. No bueno Jerica. I know I was stubborn and didn't go in sooner but I couldn't help it.

Final thought, I'm sorry to say this but I'm leaving OGLC for a little bit. I have some things I have to take care of. Some of you know what's going on but I'm just telling you that I'm leaving not only for personal reasons but I also need to figure things out. The last couple weeks things haven't been so good with my family. Issues are arising that I\'m not sure what is going to happen. I have started drinking more then I have ever drank before to the point where I had a withdrawal last week from alcohol. I am going to say this. Thanks to Joe and Bill they were able to get me not to drink for quite a few days and then I broke and drank. Right now I'm not drinking either. Trying to not go through the withdrawal stage again. During the time away I promise I will still keep in contact with Joe and with Mica. My phone is being shut off on the 12th of this month cause I cant afford the 45 dollars I need to get another months worth of service through straight talk. So the best way is to contact me on facebook or myspace. If you want to add me to yahoo messenger just ask Joe for my addy and he can give it to you. While I'm away I am going to at least write one blog. I should be gone for possibly two weeks if not longer. I don't want to be gone longer but I gotta do what I gotta do. So after probably saturday night or sunday night I won't be on for a lil bit. ;(

 

I love you all! I hope that you will support me on my decision. Just know you all didn\'t have anything to do with this decision. If I could I would take care of things while being on OGLC but to be honest idk if I can. So please understand that I'm leaving to help myself. Remember... One Love, One Chat!!!

Sincerely,
You're friend,

Jhoglund aka Jerica Lynn Hoglund

k guys so this is it, last month or two ive been going thru a lot emotionally and physically. had a lot of ups and downs. but today has been a really bad day for me bad news after bad news and cant really take it or handle it anymore. so im leaving the site till i get my shit together.i have an op in sep and suffer a lot from depression im on lots of crazy meds too help but really dont just make me feel worse.i sleep most of the day and awake all night because of them. my head is just not in a good place.and i dont want too bring the site down because its such a positive place.i will really miss a few of u and i hope u know who u r and the new friends i made will miss ye a lot too.the last few months the site has brought me many laughs and a few tears but thats life and we get on with it i guess.so i apologize for my moodiness the last few days just been going thru a lot.hope i can come back some day the animal i used too be and want too be again.and if any of u guys need me ask around for my addy. love u all and hope i come back soon.ONE CHANCE ONE LIFE SO MAKE IT GOOD ANIMAL AKA DANNY

 

 

 

 

 

 

Smooth checkin' in.

Ok haven't done a blog in a while.  And in that time I have met a new part of my family.  I met the Browns.  They openly accepted me into their family.  As I have accepted them.  I attended Manda's Graduation.  It was a blast.  Except for sitting in a gymnasium it was fun.  I got to meet some pretty amazing people.  I got to meet Manda's cousin, Trina, who has a 2 year old son who I got to play with while in Maine.  I fell in love with him.  He is so cute.  Then I got to meet the Mini Manda aka Alyssa.  She's adorable.  I got to play with her as well.  I guess I was the unofficial babysitter at the party.  I don't mind it cuz I love kids.  I could keep going on and on about playing with them but you probably don't wanna hear about that.  I got to be a pillow while there.  And I must say.  I grew accustomed to it.  I haven't been able to sleep very well since I got back.  I really miss them.  I will go back there someday.

 

 

I also meet a few very special people.  The first one I got to meet was Rayychh.  She's really beautiful.  Her eyes are gorgeous.  I liked her hugs.  I was her first OGLC hug and kiss.  And I'm glad.  She's really sweet.  She'll hold a special place in my heart cuz she was my first OGLC person I got to meet.  Next person, well group I got to meet was Ed, Cindy, and Manda.  I was expecting to be tackled by Manda but I think she was just as nervous as I was.  Ed has a really strong hand shake.  And Cindy gave really good hugs.  I miss all of them a lot.  I didn't wanna leave but at the same time I missed my mom and my cousins.  Rayychh's tatas were comfy to lay on just an FYI.  I miss being a pillow.  Yea.  Me.  A skinny guy makes a good pillow.  I got to lick whip cream off the girls necks, tatas, and backs so I can't complain.  I also got whip cream licked of me too.  I got to meet Lea.  She's a real sweet heart.  I got to hug her.  I got to meet Keith as well.  He seems like a good guy.  Didn't really talk to him much.  I was playing with kids.  I got to meet Trina.  She's another beauty that I met.  She is a firecracker.  She is amazing.  If you ever get the chance to meet Trina you should.  She made me laugh sooo hard.  She came up with a whole bunch of sayings and inside jokes while I was there.  I walked 3 miles to visit her at work.  But I'm a sucker for a girl with a kid.  Jk.  Then I got to meet Layna.  She's freaking beautiful.  I gave her the first hug.  I also gave her her first drink.  Then she talked on the computer under the kitchen table.  She is sooo funny.  The last person from the site I got to meet was Code.  He's a great dude.  Reminds me a lil of myself back in the day.

 

Well this is the end of the blog.  I love and miss all of you guys I got to meet.  If you guys are ever in Wisconsin let me know.  Smooth out!!

So, 

 

I lost my Grandma very very Young so I didn't really know much about her or anything else for that matter and well in 2008 my grandpa that i was very close too. Passed Away Due to Lung Cancer....From Smoking and What not and It took me hard I actually dropped out of school because i basically turned into a differn't person when that happend and took me a while to really get over it. and Well I always called him Grandpa thats the way it always was... But My Grandpa which was Married to my Grandma that i lost when i was younger well He was always there for me as a kid till we moved to vegas and Well I was susposed to go to Mexico With him in October to get my teeth fixed. Well I just found out that he now has Cancer and something else and isn't susposed to live past 3 months. and you know not only is it just 3 months its basically 3 months of hell...For someone who I truly feel doesn't deserve it. and I might not seem very religious but i do believe.... but i guess when God Calls...you must go Right? But As I'm getting older I'm almost 22 years old. Seems alot of my family members are dying... and Well I always get this visions that my Mom dies I mean she will at some point yes....but i'm talking like sooner than expected and I dont like it....and Well Basically If I seem down in chat or something this is why.... It has nothing to do with anything esle....

 

and I figure I'd Write it on here instead of Facebook because i have family on facebook and Don't really want them knowing my truth feelings and stuff anyway.... But Due to all of this.... I have Decided To Quit Smoking For good. Ive needed to for quite sometime and I haven't ever had the Will to do it...But I figure this is the will that I need....So basically I need a Intervention and You OGLC People have always been there to talk to and stuff so i figure yall could keep giving me motivation to help me! I feel like i could always depend on yall.... and I thank yall for that. and So Smoking Cigerettes is like anywhere from 6-7 Bucks a Pack up here.... and So i smoke one a day so its somewhere near 45 Bucks a Month  Which is like 135 Bucks a Month....Could be More... But Thats alot of money and I could use that money for other useage.... like Getting My GED...and My License and Stuff that Actually matters into the World We live in.

 

So I have decided that after i am done smoking the pack i have now lol I'm done....I'll find other things to do.... But I just wanted yall to know so yall Know whats up.....and I said I'm Done Smoking Cigerettes...Not the Other stuff =P But Anyways Thank you all for your time!!! See ya in Chat PEACE!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

There I was standing on the edge

Looking down and looking back.

I look down because I’m going to jump,

I look back to see if anyone is around to stop me.

No one is around so I thought.

There he was right as I was thinking

About jumping was a man.

I couldn’t see him very well

But I could tell he was standing there.

I knew no one would be around

To tell me that they love me

Or would even miss me.

He comes closer and is more

Visible to me and I know him

It can’t be who I think it is.

It was one of my friends.

I am getting closer to the edge as

He gets closer to me.

He is talking to me but I don’t seem

To hear anything he is saying.

I’m getting closer and closer to the edge

And he’s getting closer and closer to me.

I’m about to go when next

Thing I know I feel strong arms

Being wrapped around me.

He tells me he would miss me and that

I shouldn’t do it because he would be hurt.

I didn’t think anyone cared but

I now know that he does.

The last week or so, I know I haven't been myself.

Barely saying anything, or I'm walking off/hiding my face.

Truth is, half the time I'm bawling my eyes out and I don't want any of you to see me like that.

Things have gotten beyond frustrating, saddening, and stressful.

 

My mom and I are fighting almost everyday.

She's like obsessed with this guy from Nigeria.... and I can't say anything about it.

I've talked to him ONCE... and he had the nerve to call me daughter.

On top of that, the old feelings I had when I came home are resurfacing.

 

The 28th is my one year anniversary with Evil.

My plans to move there have changed quite a few times in the last 5 months.

Honestly, at this point I don't care HOW I get there, as long as I do.

It's eating away at me how bad I miss him, and the family, and our friends.

 

When I talk to them, they always ask when I'm coming back.

It breaks my heart, because I never could give a real answer. Just said "Soon."

I could hide it before, because I had distractions, and things to help me.

But I've lost control of the anger, sadness and bitterness that festered the day I left him.

 

My family doesn't listen to me, nor do they really care.

So the only ones I really have are the online friends that I've made here.

Seriously, you guys are so amazing.

I thank you from the bottom of my heart for the support you've given me.

 

I've talked to a couple of you about it in depth over the last couple of days.

{{Ash, Kath && Manda -- thanks for listening to me complain lol}}

The six weeks I was there, was the most alive I've felt in years.

I grew as a person... and I accomplished things I never thought I could.

-Without medication-

 

I miss him more than I could ever say in words.

I want nothing more than to just hold him (right now) and feel like everything is okay.

I want to wake up to the sight/smell/feel of him. It made me believe I had a purpose.

I left the best part of me in Nevada, and I need it to feel complete again.

 

I want to apologize for the way it's been.

I hate spilling my heart in front of everyone, and showing the wrong emotions.

Eventually I'll be the Mica everyone knows and loves,

Just need a little time, patience, and a hell of a lot of love.

 

I love you all..

Keep it Leet.

Keep it Wicked.

 

-Mica-

 

The past is somethin i want to leave behind and forget and yet when i try to do somethin it is always brought up.

I get that ive been a screw up and a failure, but i am not perfect, never admitted to being perfect, Nor do i want

to be perfect. I am content with myself just the way i am, those mistakes have made me the person i am today

and i wouldnt take it back if i could.  I'm sick and tired of going through the same barriers each and everytime.

Get over yourself, im not the same person i was back then, 

But you know what: you can judge me, put me down, whatever.

I. DONT. GIVE. A. FUCK.

I'll prove your stupid ass wrong.

 

I was in chat for 8 hours today I went well, talked with Rod, Mica Knight Rider, Raven & Cravin, Jerica, Jamie  and Ani. Sadly I didnt get to talk to Sagey who I missed something horrible I didnt get banned today or make anybody Mad as I am working really hard on my new approch not to do anything wrong that might upset my new friends :) Proving myself is important I love you all very much and this is pretty much my last chance to make OGLC work for me long term so Im pulling out all the stops and hoping for the best.

^^; Love you all

Justy! ^^; Is good day today! BE HAPPY!

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so you wanna be a mod .. and you wanna know how to do it .. well theres a million things you can do to get our attention and have us take notice on how you handle the room ....but from now till st pattys day .. if your the first person who brings in 25 new members you can be a mod in training and mod the site for 1 month ..normal mod rules apply and how you handle the job will really show is if you are ready to step up and be part of the mod team...no this is not to say that he winner will be a mod after the trial month .. but its a great way to get yoru foot in the door..

all you need to do is brign members to the site

have them register and get approved

and have them comment on this blog that you sent them to the site .

its that easy

ifyou need help .. allways ask we can help you with ways to find memebrs and how the best ways to get them here  so dotn hesitate to ask for help.

if 2 people want to work on this challenge as a team .. you can but the rules change a bit.. you will have to get 40 members and you will either split the time you get to mod or you can split the prize money ..

this is the best way to give back to the site that gives so much to you so please do your part to get even one member  the site is only as good as the members we have on it .. so new people just keep us going ..

 

congradulations go out to raven whom  didnt bring in the numbers of the last contest but her hard work and heart were in the last contest so we will be sending her a 25.00 gift card to hot topic as a thank you prize for the last contest.... nice job ...

good luck .. and we hope you all get in to this contest!!!

Sooo.... I was thinking of making another OGLC Video....and this is what i want to do.... I got a great video editing program. and I want a bunch of people to help me with this....and by helping i mean all you have to do is simple.... Make a Video of yourself i'd say anywhere between 1-2 minutes explaing what you like about oglc...or why you should join oglc.. or just anything oglc related. and the send it to my email whichever one u send it to is fine and then i'll put it together so its like a collab video with a bunch of us in it. so when someone who doesn't know what it is sees it. it might give a good vibe if theres all of us talking about it. so if you are interested in doing this or what not just respond to this blog so i know who is...I'll wait like 1-2 days. and hopefully i have some people interested. Ok Thanks.

ok gang its been a while since we have had a contest and with all our amazing new members i think its time ... so heres the long and short of it ..

all you need to do is invite your friends to oglc .. hit up your myspace  face book  msn ect .. bring everyone you know ...

then have them join make sure thier profiles are filled out help them as much as you can .. show them around and how cool oglc is ..

then have them comment here on this blog  that you sent them .. its easy and as soon as they join they can get in on the contest too..

admin will be checking profiles for any new memebers as of today  feb 23  the contest will run till sunday march 28 at 12 midnight est...

prizes for the first person to get 10 members  gets a 20.00 gift card .. i tunes  game stop  target wally mart .. you name it ..

first to 20 members gets a ipod shuffle 

so if your the first to 10 and then 20 you get both !!!!!!

if by chance the winner gets more than 20 .. we will make the prize bigger 40 new members and the ipod is upgraded to a i pod nano

bigger than 50 and the winner  will get the nano and a 25.00 gift card

bigger than 75 the winner gets the nano and a 50.00 gift card.

bigger than 100 members by sunday .. and we will gift you a i touch or a  game system   if the same price ..

if you win and the priz isnt waht you wouild like we will find somethign on the same price that will make you happy ..

a reminder to anyone that wants to be a bigger part of the site .. while you dont have to participate in contests its a great way to give back to the site even if you think you cant get 20 or 100 people ever memeber you bring matters they might bring more and the more they bring will bring more .. the site is only as good as the members we have... also  when we run contests were looking for the stand out memebrs who help newbies and show them the ropes and get involved in welcomeing new memebrs and making them feel liek you did when you first  found oglc ..so if you ahve been asking how you can become a mod this is a great way to show you can be a bigger part of the site ..we look forward to everyone having fun with this contest and giving it thier best effort we hope that every member and every reg.. brignsin at least one new member to give back to what og gives you every week ..one love one chat .. good luck .. lea

Just trying to get rid of it. I didn't realize how much it affected my ex to have it up where other people can read.

- 4 AM -

"Just fucking go to bed.."
Muster the pain-filled, anger-driven words from your throat,
Sound waves traveling into unlistening ears,
A click follows, receiver going dead in your hands.

Pace the distance from the kitchen to the bedroom afterwards,
Body shaking like you're laying on a slab of ice.
Sit down in the half broken chair,
Staring into the box sitting on top of the desk, type five words, and leave again.

- 4:05 AM -

Circle around your room like a dog chasing it's tail,
Chest heaving frantically,
Lack of oxygen already, anxiety attack isn't helping.
Head twitching, arms convulsing like it's another seizure.

Pull at the hair protruding from the tangled mess.
Body itchy, almost burning from the sensation of your clothes.
Wonder 'what is going on,' having never felt anything like it.
Strip down, lean against the closet, hugging your prized stuffed animal.

- 4:10 AM -

Eyes filled with salty emotion,
A few sighs escaping from the confines of your chapped, wind-damaged lips.
Rocking back and forth, methodically,
Never once letting go of the only thing you have; everyone else being asleep.

Head spinning from the thoughts inside them.
Heart fluttering, rhythm like a drum solo in the most brutal metal song made.
Unable to move outside the rocking motion, glued to the floor,
Finally feeling that break you've warned yourself and everyone else about.

- 4:17 AM -

Finally manage to lift your naked body from the floor,
sitting once again in front of the box emitting blue shadows across your face.
Three messages, they know something's up.
Dress yourself in shorts and your hoodie, they want to know you're ok.

But you aren't.
Makeup caked around your eyes, eyeliner making a vortex around the voids.
Hyperventilating so much you could pass out,
Yet holding on with every ounce of strength you could possibly have left.

- 4:25 AM -

Manage a conversation with the two friends there,
Telling them what they already know and have seen.
"You're stronger than this, come on,"
Words taunting you like whispers on a lone walk in sheer darkness.

Scratching feeling in the back of your throat,
Regurgitate your late night snack while hiding your face from the friend.
Shaking harder, standing with bucket in hand, urine stains in your shorts,
puke lodged in the back of your throat, saying a silent prayer that this isn't the end.

- 5 AM -

Third wheel added to this conversation amongst friends.
Not wanting to give any details on why, just the what.
Finally calm enough to breathe semi-normal, hands still shaking
Voice cracking like nutshells underneath fingertips.

"This isn't weakness, it's love."
Read word by word the statement left like it's the last thing you'll see in your mind.
Knowing the reality of it,
But all-the-while envisioning your big downfall.

- 7:30 AM -

Head resting on the wooden desk,
Drifting off into a somewhat peaceful sleep,
Conversation flowing through your head,
Saying everything you wish you had mentioned.

- 9 AM -

Awake to the nothingness around you,
Only sound coming from your steadied breathing,
And the whirring fan you used to calm the temperature flashes.
Saying your goodnight's to those still there for you.

- 5:37 PM -

Collecting your thoughts from the previous night,
Finally finishing the story of your battle,
Thinking of the next move in your life,
Knowing no matter what, nothing will be the same again.

 

 

Rip me asunder
Light the fuse
Pull me apart
I love the abuse

Emotions a torment
you see in my eyes
The smile I wear
Yet another disguise

Scars on my body
Under my skin
Leaving me broken
It's where you've been

Wandering hopeless
Seeking the way
Forever yet never
And always to stay

Showing my back
Turning the key
Walking away
Future to see

On the horizon
Light on the way
Waves on the sand
Another new day

 

Hello OgLc. <3

This is a short tutorial using Gimp.

Before I continue, my first two tips are:

Go into Gimp and play with it, familiarize yourself with the program.

Familiarize yourself with the hot-keys as they will be handy. 

EDIT: OgLc Cropped the images. Right click, Open Image in New Tab to view the image fully. It may be of help .

1. Start Gimp.

2. Create a New Image. Press Ctrl + N. Resolution I used was 400x400. White Background

3. Open the Text Editor. Press T.

Your cursor will turn into a "+" create a box in the middle of the Image.

Type OGLC in the  Gimp Text Editor.

In the ToolBox under Text, you can change the Font, and Size.

For the font I would suggest something bulky. and I used 100 for the font size.

4. Create a new Layer.

Press Ctrl + Shift + N.

5. Select the text.

On the Text layer called "OGLC" right click, and click on Alpha to Selection.

Go to the New layer titled, "New Layer"

6. Gradient.

Press L.

Now in the ToolBox.

Choose Red for the foreground color, and black for the background. (You can use any color your little heart desires.)

7. In the image you should see a marquee around "OGLC"

Your cursor is a "+" again. 

Left click and hold down the cursor right above the marqueed text.

Drag to the middle of the text. (You will see a line connecting both point)

Once you let go of the left button on your mouse the gradient should be applied.

Make sure the the gradient is applied on the new layer.

8. Create a new Layer. (Ctrl+Shift+N)

9.Select the Text. (Right click, Alpha to Selection on the original Text Layer)

10. Make sure that the new layer is selected.

11. Change the foreground to "White."

12. In the ToolBox, under Blend, locate Gradient.

Click on Gradient, select "FG to transparency."

Apply the gradient. From the top of the text to the middle as before. (Or until it resembles the picture.)

(Tip:)UNDO IS YOUR FRIEND

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13. Using the Ellipse Selection tool. 

Press E. 

14. Create an oblong shape in the center of the of the text.

(Note! We are still on the current layer, the one we applied the white gradient to.)

Once applied. Press Delete.

This Give the text a "glossy" look.

 

15. Select the Text (original text layer). Create a new Layer. 

16. Now we Shrink the marquee.

On the Menu go to Select --> Shrink. Choose 3 pixels.

17. Change the colors to default. (Foreground Black, Background White)

Press D.

18. Paint Bucket.

Shift + B

Apply.

(NOTE!: This layer should be in between New Layer, New Layer#1) 

19. In the Brushes, Patterns, Gradients window. Under Layer. 

Locate Mode, change the Mode to "Screen" (You can use whichever one you desire.)

20. Merging Layers.

Right Click, click on Merge Down.

Go to "New Layer#2", and Merge it down.

21. Renaming the Layer.

Right click on the layer. Click on Edit Layer Attributes (Top of the list.)

I named it oglc-Color1.

22. Duplicating a Layer.

Right Click on the layer, click on Duplicate layer. (That wasn't hard LOL)

23. Transforming the Layer.(Layer name: oglc-color2)

On the Menu. Layer --> Transform --> Flip Vertically.

24. Moving the layer.

Press M.

Got to the layer flipped vertically and move directly under the original layer on the image. (Refer to image below if I confused you.)

25. Use the Ellipse Tool, (Press E). 

(Note! Still on Layer Name: oglc-color2)

I used the oblonged shape create by OGLC's bottoms as a guide.

Once you have selected the area.

26. Invert! Crtl + I

27. Feathering!

On the Menu. Select --> Feather.

I used 25 pixels. Feel free to experiment. The higher the value the more the feathering? 

UNDO IS YOUR FRIEND. So no worries. 

Press Delete.

You will get a "Fade"

28. Opacity.

In the Brushes, Patterns, Gradients window.

Under Layers and Mode.

You will find Opacity.

I set mine to 29. Feel free to experiment. =]

Thats it. Your end result should resemble this.

Any questions? Critiques? Suggestions? Anything? Just ask. =] 

 

Okay, OGLC, Firstly I would love to thank everyone, all the people I love, and I love to chat with, I would especially love to thank the admins who believe in me, and colored me green. Something I never thought I would being doing, something I am honored to have, and something I will cherish. Thank you sincerely. 

As you have read on Lea's blog we are creating crews, you now have the chance to have your creative ideas brought to the website to share with everyone. I have asked to be in charge of the graphics crew, and our goals will be to update the main banner with monthly/weekly themes, something to help spice up our main page. Maybe even advertisement? And I would love to see everyones talent portrayed on the front page, I know we have talent, so lets show it.

You don't need to be an expert in photoshop, you don't even need to know anything about graphics, just determination and love is all I ask for.

So if you interested, please see me, or email me at iggy@og-leetchat.net

You can, help create banners, give suggestions, critique (positively of course))

You can even just take screenshots and make a banner of you in chat, the list of possibilities are endless.

Here is your chance at making OGLC even sexier.

~IGGY~

One Love~One Chat

 

 

 

As some of you all know me from the previous name " Careful ", I just wanted to give out a full good hearted " Thank You " for excepting me back to all the parties that are involved in the making of this site. I have learned from the past year that life is too short for hang ups and negativity. We are spinning around on this small rock everyday not noticing how fragile we are....just sitting in this vast soup called space. Our lives can end in the flash of a butterflies wing from many cosmic events... yet we bitch and moan everyday about trival matters that are the small picture of the big picture. I guess what I am trying to say is... words are words.. and actions are actions. If someone needed a friend, a hand, advice...I'd be here for the most part. Life is too short for violence, too short for Bullshat, hold on to the things dear to your heart and appreciate what life has to offer... build a legacy!! so people will remember who you are and what you did with your time here.

subby

So.. here I am writing at almost 4:30 am.. a nervous wreck to say the least. The last five months, Evil and I have been talking about this... and trying to plan it.. and now that it's happening, it all seems so unreal. There's a lot of firsts, a lot of paranoia, and a hell of a lot of stress. In the last 22 days since the ticket was bought, I've been getting stuff from all angles. People telling me to go, people telling me not to go, others telling me trust my instincts. 

I've been trying to stay as relaxed as possible, but it's been really hard. With trying to prepare myself mentally for my first ever plane ride, to my family being on my back about a guy they've never talked to and "don't trust," to my friends on here telling me to follow my heart, and my dreams and go. It's all mounted up, and the last two weeks, it's been unleashing hell on me. Almost two weeks ago, I ended up in the hospital ER for the first time, for syncopal episodes (fainting spells) and seizures caused mostly by stress. I was fine afterwards, minus a few people just sticking to me like leeches and trying to get me to change my mind about going. Just this Saturday, I had another ER visit due to an asthma attack. You'd think a second time would get people to back off a bit, but my oldest sister, who I already don't get along with, was arguing with me while I was laying in the damn bed! Sunday, two days before I'm supposed to be at the airport, my aunt, who PROMISED me she'd take me regardless, tells me that she can't and won't take me. Her words "I'll do anything for you, just not this." In a different circumstance, I wouldn't be as mad as I am... but once you break a promise to me... knowing I have no other ready options, that's just as good as stabbing me in the back.. or probably slicing my throat... and this is my family. 

 

Anyone that really knows me, would know that I don't ask for anything besides respect and honesty... maybe even some understanding. But the people in my own town, the people I thought would care the most about what is gonna make me happy, have now dragged me into the center of my own personal hell. Not only are they causing me to stress out, but they're affecting my friends and my boyfriend. All because of the fact that they want me to stay in this town.. where the only two friends I have care more about themselves and doing what they want. I'm like.. reclusive in this place. I don't go out, I don't do drugs, I don't have sex with random people.. I have no kids, I graduated high school.. what more do people want? Ok, so I have no job yet, and I don't drive... minor things that can be fixed. My plan when I got back home was to get both of these worked on... I definitely didn't walk six miles in just over 2 hours for job applications for nothing. Gah... I should stop ranting.

 

I'm supposed to be taking off from Cleveland Hopkins Airport in 12 hours... and I have absolutely no idea how I'm going to get there. Cab companies want $60-80 that I don't have... and I'm damn sure not taking money from anyone else. Sister's can't do it... my last two efforts are my uncle, and my grandpa/mom. I don't think either one of them are going to be too thrilled.. nor eager to do it. Everything's pretty scrambled right now.. but I know a few things for sure...

 

First off, thank you all for the support you've shown me since I even brought this entire trip up... (and to those who kept it a secret when Evil told you I was coming in the first place). It means a lot knowing that people do understand what and how much this entire thing means to me. Thanks to everyone who sat there for hours and listened to me bitch and rant and complain about what was/is going on, and how nervous I was/am. I guess the major things I've learned is to just be yourself... do things for  you... and your way... and no matter how hard or impossible it seems, or is..

 

You just gotta have faith.

RESPECT. Thats all you need to chat here. Simple. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Aretha Franklin said it. Muhamed Ali showed it.

 

 

 

 

 

Our US Soldiers abroad live it. Policemen, Firemen have it.

 

 

 

 

 

We live by it.      OGLC.   One Love ~ One Chat!

So, again, I apologize for not being on as much... doesn't mean I'm not watching out for you all.. there's been a lot of stuff going on at home and with Evil that I've been dealing with && thinking about.. Thought I'd let you in on it.. and know that I'm okay.

 

As you all know, Evil and I have been together for almost four months now... and things are hitting a very deep level. He's planning a trip out here in either February or March... we're trying to figure out which would be better.. considering winter conditions, gas prices, etc. He asked me when we talked about it, if everything went well, as we hope it will, would I go back to Vegas with him... and we would look for our own place. Of course it's a huge step in such a short time, but I'm going to be taking a lot into consideration within the next 5-6 months. I've always dreamed about getting out of my town, and now that the opportunity is here, I'm quite terrified to be honest. I've only known Barberton.... and it's simple city kind of life. For me to pack up and leave my family, my friends, and all I've ever had is really hard for me to think about. Am I excited for the big step in my life? Absolutely. It's a chance to start over... and become the woman I should be... the person I was before all the stuff happened in my life.... hard-working.. goal oriented.. and ready for anything. I've been looking into college courses down there... and searching for an apartment... eventually a house if I end up going.. it's really nice to think about and have a plan set up.... Any advice you guys have, please let me know <3

 

On another note, my oldest sister Heather might be moving in, which creates a bad situation. Even when I was younger, we didn't get along... I almost ended up in Juvy three times for the physical fights we got into... because of her violence against my mother and grandfather. I think my mom is feeling sorry for her.. despite all she's done... and claims she has "nowhere" else to go. Because there aren't shelters or places that she could easily check into? Her moving back in is going to be tumultuous.. and work against my near two years of therapy... I still have suppressed anger against my sister.. with good reason. I've told them numerous times that I'd leave if she stepped foot back in.... and it's like they don't care if I leave... so my plans may take a huge turn into the fast lane... and I could be on the West Coast before I can blink.

 

I've been trying to keep myself busy... cleaning and going for walks.. getting my old energy back. I need to get off this blasted computer sometimes.. and live while I can... ya know? Also been looking for a temp job so I can save up for things I need, and for college tuition. I'm really trying to catch up.. I've lost a lot of the time I could have been taking classes && getting the English or Music degree I've wanted for years. With all that's going on.. a lot of my self doubts have been coming back. Mostly the "Am I worth it?" kind of questions.. that have been driving me completely nuts. I haven't had much reason to think that I'm not... I guess all the change at once is really affecting me.. as I figured it would. That'll be a good hour of therapy at my next session LOL!

 

I'm really looking forward to seeing what happens within the next few months.. I'm definitely gonna push myself and reach deeper than I have to figure out exactly what I want.. and what I feel I'm ready for... and I know I can do it with the good support system I have. Thanks for listenin, as you've always done. Keep it Wicked.

 

One Love,

- Mica -

so very often we have been asked lately how can i be a mod? so heres were we address this ..really theres no set way ...but hteres plenty of ways you can  make a differance and stand out then we pay attention to how you handle things.. its the little thigns that make up the package that makes a good mod .

first its how you handle yourself in the room .  we all get a little out of hand from time to time.. we all forget the ways of oglc .. but its the overall way you conduct your self ..

we love the fact that when people come in they get a hello and feel welcome thats not to say everyone has to say hello but one of the qualitys we love is someone that steps up and helps in the room ..greeting or helping out the newbies. working on problems when someone needs help . these things are a great way to be noticed... ill tell ya its what got mica the mod position .. she was with out question dedicated to the site and really worked hard to help not even sayign a thing about being a mod. and thats what made us take notice,

promoting is another way to really stand out .. we all know that the site is only as good as the members here , so helping the site grow is a great way to promote .. if you need ideas on how to do this effectively  theres  tried and true ways to do this .. but our only rule is .. we dont spam .....but even getting in to the contests and doing your part....or helping a newbie get thier friends here helps.

workign the profiles . we all love being in chat so much that we neglect the profiles sometimes .. reach out friend a few  people that you meet in chat .. it helps people fit in .. and blogs are great ... theres so much there hit up some friends you havnet seen in a while .or people that come in asking about other members you can remind them to leave a message on thier profile...or do it your self they will get an demial message and that willhopefully make them want to pop in to the site ... and in turn you have gotten someone back to the site .. woohooo

so there is no one way  to be come a mod .. but i will tell you this .. we are looking .. were allways looking but  we are watching closely now .. so you ahve what it takes to break up a fight ? can you take somethign that might be really personal and hear both sides and try to find a way to make everyone comfortable? can  you find a way to take the negitive out of a stiuation and make it positive for everyoen involved ?

the jobs not all fun and games theres lots to do and its hard to not to piss people off sometimes .but  when it comes to worign to keep oglc the greatest chat site .. well thats the reward ....if you think you can handle it  step up and show us your stuff .. hopefully your already on the short list and were watchign you anyhow... show us what you got...

     I blog to you in wee hours of the morn to say i dont know everything. and its a lesson we all need to be reminded of (or learn) at one point or another in life. whether its when your an invicible teenager, or an adult who is going back to college to polish their education. And when it comes to communication whether face to face, or online, it is unfair to assume intentions or jump to conclusions. The internet is an infamous catalyst for this occurance. I even did a presentation about interpersonal communication via the internet for a class i was taking. And no amount of smilies can adaquately convey the subtleties of the mood, tone, inflection, and even sometimes the sarcasms of communications. But there are times in both real life and online where we dont get that far. When we dont let the words of persuasion grace our ears, and the beauty of language lies defunct. This happens alot in life. When politicians argue, philosophers debate, and zealots preach. The same blindness appears all over the world in forms of racism, sexism, narccisism, any imaginable bias is simply an unwellingness to learn and listen.

  I am unhappy to have come to the realization i am guilty of the charges i so loathe. I simply plugged my ears and let assumptions lead me by the nose instead of listening before speaking. And was humbled tonight, and thankfully so.

So i just want to say that i am sorry to Lea, to other admins, moderators and members of oglc for any ignorance and disrespect on my part, and hope that in the future, i can be a bigger and more responsible part of OGLC and help push it in the right direction. And if do display any unsavoury behavior, please tell me immediately because a behavior that goes unchecked, may unfortuneatly turn into a habit.

goodnight everyone, i am very tired, i love you all.


TL;DR: im sorry to everyone because disrespect to one member of oglc is disrespect to all. and if you see me being a meanie slap me upside the head and tell me to behave.

Respect.

Respect - esteem for or a sense of the worth or excellence of a person, a personal quality or ability, or something considered as a manifestation of a personal quality or ability.

Opinion - a personal view, attitude, or appraisal.

Everyday, I ask myself why I even give my opinions out. Why I even respect others when others hardly even respect me.

I think the answer lies simply in my childhood, the way i was raised. Though my relationship with my parents is not what I would want it to be, I still was shown and taught great mannerisms. Like, respect my elders, never be afraid of expressing myself. Always be observant and focused and think outside of the box, thus being  step above the rest. Remedial knowlegde.

But with experience comes wisdom I learned to respect myself. Since I respect myself I behave with pride. Such that I treat everyone the way I want to be treated. My respect has to be earn, and it can easily be lost. But when I give someone my respect, I cherish everything about them, especially their opinions.

Seems to me that the definition of respect has been dismantle, and tarnished.

Some reasons why I believe so..

1. If you respect someone you never pitty that person,  or you never ask another person or group of persons to pitty another.

2. If you respect someone you respect what they have to say no matter how rediculous it maybe or offensive.

There are many more, but for lack of time these two will suffice.

I have never openly asked anyone else to pitty another human being. Instead I have asked how could I help, or I would inquire more about their life. How else could you make a difference?

I am very opinionated. I hold my feelings in a lot, because I don't like to be referred as a jerk. But If I believe that a person is not worth my respect, I immediately let them know. I have reasons for everything. Everyone does, you are full of shit if you say otherwise.

If I feel as though someone is not allowing me to express myself, or if I feel as though someone believes that they are better them me or anyone else, I immediately lose respect. I am not better then anyone, because life is a constant challenge and every moment someone surpasses you, and you surpass someone else, both mentally and physically.

Another thing I hate. Attention whores. Persons that constantly want others attention. I just can't deal with it.

And these are some pet peeves of mine, girls that say that they are not sluts. From my experience it means that they are, and that they have had atleast one STI. And posers.

All of this jargon leads to one thing.

If the site is about respect, and in order to show respect you have to accept someone elses opinion, then why are people trying to censor  me? Telling me to behave? Telling me to be nice?

Are they right? Am I wrong? or Am I right and they are wrong?

Define rights, ethics, morality...

There is no definition. It would be an opinion. A cultural opinion but none the less an opinion. One that you chose to respect.

If I dislike you, and I have told you, it means that you are not worthy of my respect simple.

(Just a general observation of life, not directed towards anyone in particular.)

 

~IGGY~

It is about respect here in OGLC!

 

 

As i sit here bored as usual, and everyone seems to be away in the main chat, I got to thinking about what was said about me the other day by 2 members of this site that will remain nameless.

 

 

Those 2 in question said that I was "a very negative person" and one went as far to say that "Now she knows why she never gopt to know me better".  Now I am a negative person, but not 100% of the time. I have the belief that life sucks and then you die. Is it so wrong to think that way? Now i could be a positive person and fake that i am this happy-go-lucky dude that loves everyone and everything, but that ain't me!  You also have to take into consideration that i am also Bipolar, and change moods very easily and become so very depressed that suicide is the main thought on my mind.  Now granted when i am of clear thought of mind suicide is never an option, NEVER!  Now i can give you all a sob story about my life and make you all cry and wanna hug me, but that would just make me wanna tell you all the fuck off, lol! I am the type of person you need to take with a grain of salt, cause you never know (even i don't) what i am going to say next.  All i can tell you is if i don't like you, i won't hide the fact, because i am an upfront in your face person, who loves the cliff's edge and thinks what it would be like to take that leap off it.  If ya wanna really get to know me and see what makes me tick... send me a personal message, you'll get more info that way, i tend not to air my "dirty laundry" in public, just not who i am. But i am all for bringing to the attention of the public a person who is being a complete as and using rules for their own gain, against some but not all! Anyways this is long enough, and ya'll are getting fucking sick of reading this shit.... Like anyone reads this shit anyways!

DRAMMMMA ISSS

    DUMMMMMB!

don't do it :/

I'm sitting here this morning, thinking on the past, like I always do. About how just a few months ago I was in a scum of a chat site, and how an amazing person brought me to this site. I was lost and needed guidance, so I was introduced to oglc and I changed. I thank ANIMAL everyday for bringing me here, to opening my eyes to a site that has so much love and respect for other people its unreal. I have so much love for everyone that is on this site, I sometimes still dont believe it. From the first day I signed up and entered the chat, I was accepted, there was no bad vibes, or rude, unwanted remarks. It was nothing but loving and caring people. This is my home, without a doubt. This is a place where people come to make friends, you have fun here, and arent judged for it. You can be yourself. I love that. There aren't enough words in the world to describe the love i have for this place. This is a place where people can be safe and have fun and be themselves, not many people can say that about a site. This is without a doubt the BEST chat site on the world wide web. The mods and admins are one of a kind and top notch, they cant be topped. The chatters are the most respectful and greatest people I have had the pleasure of meeting and conversing with, I cant tell you how many times I have laughed myself silly, I have bonded with so many, the connections are unreal. If I could meet all of you before I die, I would die happy. I just want to thank everyone that I have met here, that has showed me the love and respect everyone deserves. You are all great people, and I love you all <3

                                                                                                                                                 -KK

I am sitting in John. F Kennedy airport in New York and I am STILL on OGLC. You may ask yourself why, after an entire month of promoting the site and broadcasting live on it at many different venues, am I still willing to sit here and talk to all of the people and tell them about my day. It's because the people at OGLC are my family. Because of OGLC I was able to fly to Las Vegas and experience a city, and its people, that I normally would not have the chance to experience. I became aquainted with the streets and familiar with the landmarks and Las Vegas became a second home for me. So today, when I had to leave to return back to Maine, it hurt a little. The images flashing in my mind were those of the trip I took to California and the Reggae in the Desert concert. I also ran through a mental scrapbook of all of the people I met here. Katie with her beautiful eyes and her loving personality. Sarah with her strength and her determination to complete what she puts her mind to. Ceaser with his tough image and incredible mind. Ziggy with his tough guy demeanor and his quiet questions at the strangest moments. Suzette with her addicting laughter and her amazing stories. Rodney with his thoughts on life and his incredible outlook on the future.

Together these people have made up my entire month of June. They made me laugh, cry and sometimes made me reevaluate my own life. They taught me many things about myself and allowed me to see some aspects of life and it's pieces that I haven't seen before. I know I have said it before and people might get tired of hearing it but I need to speak of it again. This site is REAL, the people are REAL and the love is REAL. I have never felt any realer moment in my life then sitting with my two best friends in a Las Vegas loft listening to Bob Marley with no place to go and no expectations to meet. Just sitting there knowing that all we need to have at that moment in time is our love for each other and a common goal of making the lives around us just a little better. What I am trying to ask is that people tell everyone they know about OGLC, let them know what they're missing. For all of the new individuals who have checked out OGLC, THANK YOU!! From the bottom of my heart, thank you.We are all working toward a common goal here and that is to bring the "One Love One Chat" motto to people all over the world and try to make their lives better.

The moderator trip that occured at the beginning of June was a once in a lifetime experience and one that I will never forget. Everyone who came to Las Vegas bonded in a way that you only read in a book or watch in a movie. We strengthened our bond as family and showed those around us that state borders, racial differences and age boundaries would not keep us apart. We are OGLC and we are here with a message. So thank you to all of the mods and admins who spent time with me in June. I love you all and you have all greatly impacted my life.

I want to say a special thank you to Rodney Taitano. Thank you for making me feel welcome in your home. Thank you for imparting your wisdom into my life and into my soul. Thank you for being somple and extraordinary at the same time. I could spend a lifetime just sitting and listening to you talk about life and visions for the future. It is one of my favorite pastimes. I can never let you know how much I love you and appreciate you but what I can do is spend a lifetime trying.

Thank you all who read this and respond.

Much love,

Manda AKA Aries

Well its been one year since the last fathers day i will ever have with my dad ever. Tmrw is father's day the first one without him..because as most of yall know he died last year. In case yall are wondering how im felling well i miss him alot..and it kinda sucks that he aint here this year. I think about it and theres alot of things i wish i could change. Like i wish that he would have listened to him more. I wish i hadn't argued with him so much. I wish that we could have have been alot closer throughout my life. Also if I had know that night would be his last i would have stayed up all night with him. I do know however that i can not change the past and that I will nver get a second chance to fix things. However he was very proud of me. I think the thing i should learn and follow from this exeperince is too always keep my friends and family close because i never know when they'll pass away. I also do know that anyday coudl be last day too. Well i thought through this blog id let yall know hwo i fell abotu the first fathers day without my dad. I love yall to death and i aperricate everything yall have ever done for me. I love you dad and i miss you!

I know that lately I haven't been coming in, and I'm sorry for that. I feel bad cause I just got this new mod position, and when I'm not there, it's like I'm abandoning it, and it's very far from that. The last two weeks have been very crazy for me... with stuff at home.. and online. My old habits of hurting myself are starting to come back, as much as I hate to admit it. While it doesn't have any physical lasting marks, it's leaving one on me emotionally. I haven't been on much, because I don't want to bother you all with it, by talking about it or even having you possibly see it. I know that I can always come to any of you, but in ways I want to beat it the way I did before, by myself. Hopefully with the counseling I'm in, and the meds that I've taken to help control it will pay off again. Then I can start to be the Wicked_Lette that you all know and love. Not some half-assed version. I love you all, and I don't want you to worry about me. I'll be good as new.. very soon... Keep it Wicked, my Elite family. <3

 

-Mica-

AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!  Thanks for keeping it real on the site..!!!   Get into the video-chat room and hang out with some cool, respectable , sexy people!!

Peace!

~OG!

WILL YOU BE MY VALENTINE?  

how much do you love OGLC???

 yea i know we all do but what have you done lately to show your love ????? OG has a big VALENTINES SURPRIZE for all of us and were excited to hear all about it very soon!!! but what you ask ,can you do to show  your love for the site and for the guy that works so hard for us..show your love !!!!!!!  

make a video but some work in to it tell the world about oglc and all the cool things you can do there hit all the important things  

 make sure you dont forget the web address WWW.OG-LEETCHAT.NET

and that we can see up to 15 cams at a time ...

we can share files be in more than one room

we have great contest you can win prizes just got getting your friends to hang out ..

 we have the best mods and an amazing owner !!!!!!

you wont get harassed by a bunch of pervs .. (most of the time )

 you can make your own private room ..

 adult only rooms .and so much more

  so make a video .. so easy  but some work in to it cuz you know we got some pros here but more important do what you can 2 prizes will be available we will vote on the best video and then everyone that makes a new vid and posts the link here will get entered to win  just for making a vid !!!!!  

one more easy way to win a prize....send OGLC a valentine ... yes snail mail .. were really excited about this .. there\\\'s just a few things it has to be it has to be a pic of you ..

we would like it if it reps where your form your area your state or something local that people will know ..

 easy for og .. he can do anything in downtown vegas   for lea well fenway park would be a boston land mark that people know ...just giving you a few ideas ..   and show your love for OGLC!!!!!  

were gonna maybe use these pics on the site so people can see we span the globe so i hope you rep your area and show the oglc love and  really put your heart in to this .. i

f you have any questions please ask the mods and the regs im sure they will help we love to see you all working together for the good of all ... its one of the many special things we have here at  OGLC and we love to see it at work .. everyone that sends a valentine to OGLC(&rodney ) will be entered in to the contest for yet a 3rd prize .. and that will be picked on feb 28th that gives you plenty of time to send in your entry .. every day  when  rodney gets home from work he will open the days mail on cam and we will all get to see him open his valentines so get to work kids and give back to the site that keeps giving more .. more love more chat and more respect!!!!!  

mail entry\'s to ..  OG-LC  200 Hoover ave. suite# 1607  LasVega s,Nv 89101 contest ends feb 28 ....

 

prizes are  gift card for best video 30.00    runner up picked out of a hat for ever video posted 1 winner gets 20.00 gift card

snail mail prize will go up as more mail is recieved .. 1- 50 = 30.   50-75= 40   75-99=50  anythign over 100 2 prizes will be drawn at 50.per person .. 1 entry per profile ... show your love .. any questions contact lea .. thanks

as a reminder  you never know what other prizes og will end up sending out so you might wanna really get in to this one.. theres allways more than we say here

Im writing this blog because I need to vent some things. You may have your comments about what I say and others might not like me after what I have said but I don't care. You can think whatever you want about me after this blog. You can say that I'm a stupid bitch/cunt or you can say whatever you want bout me. There are many things I wish I could say right now BUT I'm not going.

First off, this is a site where we come to have fun. Not to cause stupid fucking drama. We don't need drama. You go through a break up get over it there are other fishes in the sea for you. As most of you knew James0225 and me were going out but broke up. I didn't cause a big fuss over him and me breaking up I just said okay we are broken up no big deal it wasn't meant to be. There is someone out there for me I just haven't found them yet. The Admin and Mods go through so much as is they don't need anymore of this stupidity put on them. Ed, Lea, Marcus, Rod, Kyle, Kylie, Row, Mica and Nic go through so much shit that they don't need drama. People need to suck up there stupidity and keep the damn drama away from this site. I log out of the site before I start anything in this site. So they should too. I might be sounding like a bitch right now and I'm sorry. We really don't need drama. I have been trying to keep my feelings to myself about the drama and some other things about this site but the time has come where I can't keep it in anymore. You cause lil disagreements on here that cause you to get banned and kicked. You make a new account your stupid because you know you are just going to get caught. What's the point of getting banned and then making another account?

Second of all, when people start saying things and people are trying to ask for you to quite talking bout that or to change the subject or something. They made a word called RESPECT!!! So respect that. Or in my case when I ask for you all to not talk about my ass or my tits and you start questioning me on why I'm asking it. Don't fucking question it, it's because I don't want you to. I don't have to give you a reason for why I ask that. Everyone needs to respect everyone on this site. If you can't respect people then there is no point of you being on this site. Respect is one of the keys to this site. You need to respect the members, the administration but most of all the site in a whole.

Third off, Im going to be more serious on this one now because i really need to do this. Im going away for a while. Im tired of things that are going on and things are getting outta hand. I've come close to drinking again but I haven't gotten that far yet. I need to get away because shit is starting to hit the fan for me and as much as you all have helped me I really need this time away. Probably what's going to happen is thursday night might be it for a while if not then then Ill try and get on friday before I head out to a retreat for friday and saturday but then again I don't get much of a break. I'm just going for a while and then get to go home and babysit the kids. I'm not sure how long of a break this will be but we will see. I just know I'm gonna get away for a bit. There are other things going on that I'm not going to write of why I'm going to be away from OGLC. If you want to know what is going on you can send me a message.

Lastly, know that whatever happens with me right now I'm going to be ok. It's going to be hard for me to deal with the things I got to deal with. The pain I have been going through lately I hope will go away if not then I need to go back to the doctor yet again. The pains in the ribs and shortness of breath is not fun for me right now. In the next year and a half things will be happening for Jer hopefully crossing my fingers but we will see what happens.

Just know I'll be thinking about you all. Love, Jerica Hoglund (jhoglund)

so here it is... i've been M.I.A. for a while. I come in from time to time when I'm having a down time. I feel bad because I want to get to know people for who they are and I haven't. I dont unintentionally try not to, it's just because I've so busy with life.  I know when I dont have anything to do, I'll drop in from time to time. So far in my life, I've been working extra hard at work because summer time is full of parties that I plan and decorate for.  I am also in the process of closing up store because more than 50% of my sales are from online and we communicate by phone and email. So why pay rent when I can do this from home? The only concern is where will I put all my material and supplies? Imma have to rent a storage space. I also am starting up school again to continue my education at University of Phoenix. My orientation day is this July 21st and I'm kinda nervous. And my first day of school is July 29. I've been trying hard to juggle my business life, work life, online life, and personal marriage life...my life is packed with new things that I'm really becoming a robot. =) jk. So I hope you all can be patient with me...I'll be in when I can...I love you chatters!! Take care and see ya when I see ya!!  ALWAYS YOURS OGLC<3 ROWENA aka HelloKitty808

 

This school year has come and gone so fast,  i honestly dont believe it myself.

But i've wanted the summer time to get here so bad! 

 

 

And im now a senior.

It seems like yesterday i was just in kindergarten causin trouble.

And i can hardly believe in less than a year ill be out in the real world.

That, at times, scares me to death.

I mean i have a good idea of what it is like, im not a sheltered child for petes sake.

But i havent had the full effect of it yet.

 

This year im going to change the way i do things and create a better me.

Im tired of just going to school and working.

Im going to live more, laugh harder, and embrace things full force.

Senior year is supposed to be the best year of our lives, an imma make damn sure that it is.

 

You guys are the best, and i love u all so much.

And im sure yall will be here to watch my adventures unfold :D

 

LOVEEEEEEEEE KK :)

Dear the abuser,

Have you ever want to be somewhere else or wish you were someone else? What if the world was poverty free? What if you had a dream and you didnt know what it meant till it came true? If something happened to me would you care? What would happen if I told you I wanted to leave you and not come back? Would you care if I left and didnt come back or are you too proud of yourrself to care? Do you even care that you hurt me? Do you care that I have gone through this pain for so long? Can you even deal with teh fact that you're being called a abuser? How can you live with yourself?

Those were many questions I ask but never seem to have the answers to. I ask myself every day "Why have you had to put up with so much?" You make me question myself everyday, you make me ask myself every day if im worth anything since you have hurt me so much. Do you really not know how to respect woman and their dignity? Apparently not. You ashame me and as far as I can tell you can rot in hell with all the other careless, worthless piece of shit bastards in jail.

I cant go on with this pain you have caused me. So please just go away and leave me alone! I dont want to see you any more, get the Hell away! If you come near me all that is going to happen is me feel the pain all over again, you gonna hurt me again or you are just going to deny the fact that it ever happened. So please just turn around and walk out the door and never come back. Hurry and leave so i dont have to tell you again. You're causing me pain I dont want right now. If I keep looking at you I'm going to break down and cry. Im walking outta the room I cant be in the room with you anymore.

One final last words for you. "Stay the hell away. Can't deal with this crap no  more. If you come back I'll be having you go through what I went through just so you can have a taste of your own vinegar. So stay outta the picture I dont want you in my life no more."

 

Sincerely your victim,

Jerica Lynn Hoglund 

You Can't see that deaths hand has glazed over my eyes, No one saw me die inside!

Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him

You hurt me, caused pain. And what was I to gain? This tiny life that is inside.

What do you do when your heart is almost completely dead?

I'm trying to be happy, wearing a smile as disguise; but I'm dying inside. The world seems to be fading, and I just want to run and hide.

I'm going to smile and make you think I'm happy, I'm going to laugh, so you don't see me cry, I'm going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me - I'm going to smile

If you're going to make me cry, at least be there to wipe away the tears

You don't die from a broken heart...you only wish you did

You know you love someone when you want them to be happy even if their happiness means that you're not part of it

I wish you were here with me, I wish I was there with you, but most of all I wish I didn't have to wish for you

I'm hurting so bad inside, I wish you could see how much I've been hurting

I loved you once, I love you still, I always have, I always will

No one to stand by my side no matter what...all alone once again

We both know Im not enough for you...thanks for finally admitting it

Confusion fed like a savage inside her, Leaving nothing considered worthy remains. Destined to walk through life less ordinary. Alone, exiled, different and disdained.

Could it be that I am empty- or maybe a little lost? No one to find me...help me...just be there for me.

Every time you kill me, I am born again

All the hurt, fear and pain that I know, I want gone from my life, I wanna go home.

As we walk our path of life, We meet people everyday. Most are simply met by chance. But, some are sent our way.   These become special friends Whose bond we can't explain; The ones who understand us And share our joy and pain. Their love contains no boundaries. So, even we are apart. Their presence enhances us With a warmth felt in the heart. This love becomes a passageway, When even the miles disappear. And so, these friends, God sends our way, Remain forever near.

 

Hope. 

 

We hold it so dearly,

cradling it like a child,

Never wanting to let go,

because it's a life-line form.

 

Hope.

 

Turns minds into zombie mode,

transforming thoughts,

making what seems so impossible,

change into 'it will happen.'

 

Hope.

 

Paralyzes when misused.

Changing directives,

sending emotions into overdrive,

and never letting up.

 

Hope.

 

It hurts.

It's euphoric.

It kills at times,

but...

 

Hope.

 

is all I have. 

well as most of you know i went to a concert last night that was for bon jovi and that i rode in a limo there....well it was an amazing experience first off if you ever get a chznce ride in a limo atleast once they are so much fun...we took so many pictures of u in there...the dirver was really great.....the concert was amazing bon jovi knows how to put on a good show...the visuals were amazing and he really knows how to interact with a crowd...it was alot of fun.....i danced some and even sung some....but no i did not hois autograph or get to meet him...one of the funniest part of the limo ride was screaming at everybody while we was going down the road...and mom sticking her head out the window....and screaming was something to be seen...they perofoormed alot of great song i ahd a reallly good time at it..if you get a chance to see them live go see it it is totally worth it.....to see a slide show of my pictures from that night go to www.youtube.com.user/jbird1700

 

 

 

 

 

 

+ It makes me sick how all our lives were instilled in our heads that we can 

do anything we want, reach for the stars, blahblahblah, and yet one test can 

determine our futures. >.>

+ It annoys me how whores put down all the amazing, fun people and everyone

envys them, why would u wanna envy a future herpes carrier?

+ Why am i so bipolar? If you can tell me that ill marry you.

+ Why must we all be put under so much pressure to choose a career? What if i 

just wanna be a damn coloring book colorer. I'm so frustrated with college and the 

future, I wanna live my life and be the happiest i can possibly be.

+ Taking one day at a time is how i'm living these days. 

+ Who wants to take me on vacation? I could use a relaxing, good time:)

+ I miss the people on this site, this site and the people here are my rock,

my escape, my safe place, my haven; whenever i am feeling anything i can come

on here and let everything go, this is my little place of sanity.

 

I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH <3

              but shhh keep it on the dl :D

 

 

 

 

 

so you wanna be a mod .. and you wanna know how to do it .. well theres a million things you can do to get our attention and have us take notice on how you handle the room ....but from now till st pattys day .. if your the first person who brings in 25 new members you can be a mod in training and mod the site for 1 month ..normal mod rules apply and how you handle the job will really show is if you are ready to step up and be part of the mod team...no this is not to say that he winner will be a mod after the trial month .. but its a great way to get yoru foot in the door..

all you need to do is brign members to the site

have them register and get approved

and have them comment on this blog that you sent them to the site .

its that easy

ifyou need help .. allways ask we can help you with ways to find memebrs and how the best ways to get them here  so dotn hesitate to ask for help.

if 2 people want to work on this challenge as a team .. you can but the rules change a bit.. you will have to get 40 members and you will either split the time you get to mod or you can split the prize money ..

this is the best way to give back to the site that gives so much to you so please do your part to get even one member  the site is only as good as the members we have on it .. so new people just keep us going ..

 

congradulations go out to raven whom  didnt bring in the numbers of the last contest but her hard work and heart were in the last contest so we will be sending her a 25.00 gift card to hot topic as a thank you prize for the last contest.... nice job ...

good luck .. and we hope you all get in to this contest!!!

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I fight for something new each day. I never expect it. Nor do I wait for something to happen. I know that if I wait for long enough, I will slowly become these people. Sitting. Smoking. Eating and doing nothing for anyone else. Only one other that has a mind that is not cursed. One that isn't crippled by this insain drug. The smoke fills the house running poor frighted me out. The smokers hide behind a 4 walls and a cover to make sure they dont get caught. The People here have friends that are like those people. Thieves, beggers, back-stabers, money hungry SOB's that have no life. Nothing new. Waiting for nothing. Doing nothing. The smoke. The yelling. What am I to do? I have friends from a diffrant world. talking with my fingers pressing each key diffrantly. Geez. Not good enough. Lets see. School, and the people there. I know that I could make friends there and have stuff to do. But wait. In this gloom agian. In the smoke. Filth and lazy attitudes of this deprssing house, I regret to call home. I have no one again. Nobody and not a damn family member to back me up.

 

 

If I had a car, I would.... wait no money.
If I had a bike even...... wait, no money.
I could even use a job. But its too slow for me here. Time is being waisted. I am turning to one of them. Getting things stolen from me bit by bit. Nothing with of any value exept only to me.

 

 

what do i do?

 

 

Where do I go? I am stuck.

Most little girls had them.

A dollhouse, idolized as their sanctuary.

Hand built and mentally crafted as a fantasy world.
One where deep desires and fairy tale wishes weren't looked down upon.

I used to play religiously.

Sometimes even changing the doll I used, disguising voice dubs,
becoming who I wanted to be at the moment.
In the moment.

Always the same situation.

Ugly duckling turned swan princess, unflawed.
The house was my castle, each room having meaning.
I was untouchable, unbroken, and loved by the most amazing prince.

Fast-forward 13 years...

I'm not the flawless princess, and I'm broken,

But I can't change who I am
My 'prince' lives a fast life, showed me things I never knew of,
and I can still disguise myself at times.

My 'dollhouse' turned out to be a two bedroom apartment,

Straight in the heart of the Sin City.
The hustle and bustle of traffic blaring through the night,
Speeding cars making my fragile heart palpitate in different rhythms.
But the adrenaline rush is amazing.

Each room is special, holding some kind of memory,

Walls whispering sordid stories through the paint and pictures hanging from them.
It is my sanctuary, but no longer a fantasy.
My idolistic views transfered to the gorgeous view I woke up to every morning.

When I think of it,

I feel the inner seven year old child within me,
Driven by pure hope of one day having that world again.
Knowing that no matter how old I am... or where I end up...

The dreams concealed within that dollhouse years ago,

Will always be inside my tainted heart

 

every day the site goes thru changes some you see and some you dont .. but changes happen .

each mod -admin  works the site a little different but were working hard to make things here on oglc better and more enjoyable for our members our mods and our admin .. and our owner.

with all the changes on the site right now and many more to come theres  afew things that keep comein up that we wanted to get there .

if in fact you are in the chat when theres an issue going on with a mod or an admin .. sometimes your help is really usefully but the last thing a mod or admin needs is 10 members prvtign the mod or admin whielthey are trying to get the problem solved .it makes it harder to wrap up the problem and more the room along the best thign you can do is to just keep the room going and get the good mood back in the room .

also when a mod or admin chooses to not pvt and says something in the room to end a situation or change something going theres a good reason for it most times hell were nto perfect but we do our best ... so please again keep the converstaion moving in the right direction and that will help us all .

and when someone is banned or kicked and were not just having a laugh the person that got kicked or banned knows why they ahve been warned and told ... if you need to know why that person was kicked or banned  please remebr sometimes it seems liek yoru questioning the authority of the mod or admin . you may ask  just please remeber we want members we dont want to kick them off the site were all about keepign people on the site.

also id you feel that a mod or admin is ever out of hand or needs to be kept in line the best way to handle that is not to just talk about it to toher members go to the admin and mods and ask how to lt the admin know what you saw note time and date  or copy and past or screen shot  and forward it to the admin .. we all can get better and the site is only as good as our members ..

on that note im gonna address new members .. we work so hard to get members to the site and for ever person we bring its a learning experiance on how oglc works  we all know whats ok and whats not but we need to embrace the changes and the things new members bring to the site .

and on the same note new members need to learn the ropes and take a step back and see how things are done we have seen this a million times and hope that any new members take the time to see how dedicated our memebrs are and theyw ill help you fit right in .its a learning experiance for all of us every day is a new day and the only rules on oglc are #1 respect for all and that means members mods and admin . and well nudity  is saved for the adult room  which we fully hope you take advatage of .. but everythign else falls under rule #1 ..

to our regs .. we are growing and changeing .. you know and love oglc for who and what we are .. we hope you grow with us and better the site by getting involved and in turn it should make your time on the site so much better .. thanks for everythign .. one love one chat ..

Hey Guys I just wanted to make this blog to give all you guys OGLC's Pages on Differn't Social Networking Sites so you all can add them and help spread the world about OGLC :) So if you have a Twitter,Facebook,Myspace you can add the links below i'm sure all of us has either one of them and if you are already following/A Friend of all of these then good for you but lets get this rolling so here ya go.

 

OGLC Twitters:

http://twitter.com/OGLC
http://twitter.com/OGLEETCHAT

Facebook:

http://www.facebook.com/#/profile.php?ref=sgm&id=1076142023

Myspace:

http://www.myspace.com/ogleetchat

 

I tried looking around to find all the OGLC related things out there if they are any that I am missing please post it here K thanks! Much Love!

To all my peeps... this is just a slight farewell. Gonna be taking it easy on the internet for a while just cuz its become my life and I need to slow down. I know I know... I haven't really been on here for a while anyway but, yah.... I love you all!! You got my number... if not then you aint my peeps or you didn't ask me lol hehe. Hope to hear from you. And ANDIPants write me on myspace I'll prolly check my mail every once in a while!!

 

 

Anyone else who wants to stalk me i mean talk to me can find me on myspace or facebook. If you don't know... you better ask somebody!!

Much love,

sugah-baby

MERRY CHRISTMAS to everyone who has touhed someone's life here on OGLC!!!!

Looking forward to an AMAZING 2010!!!   Peace!!   ~ Rod

I'm gonna tell you guys y I hate the holidays.  I started disliking them back in 1998.  In June of that year my uncle David (R.I.P) passed away because of AIDS.  Basically, he was the only father figure in my life up til his death.  My dad is a douche.  After I turned 5 i never saw him again til I was 15.  10 fucking years with out even a phone call or nothing!!!!  Asshole right?  Well it gets better.  In July of 04 I actually ran into one of my half sisters and my grandma.  They were at school registering for classes.  My mom pointed them out to me and I went and said Hi to them.  Well in August that same year I went to the county fair and met up with my sister, my grandma and my half brother.  My grandma told me that my dad was actually gonna be here soon.  I thought to myself that would be cool considering it had been 10 years.  Well when he got there he said hi to his mom and my brother and sister.  Then he looked at me and my mom puzzled.  The next words out of his mouth were, and I quote:  "Kyle.  Wow.  I remember you when you were this tall."  and held his hand showing how tall i was back then.  Those words hurt me so bad that I couldn't help what I did.  I looked at him and blacked out.  I snapped out of it walking away.  I had broken his nose.  At that time he deserved.  How could someone be so... so.... whats the word?  Cold?  Demeaning? Ungrateful?  Unloving?  Yes.  Unloving.  How could you be so unloving to your own child.  I wasn't expecting like a hug or him to break down and cry.  But I sure as hell wasn't expecting that.  So did he deserve it?  You tell me.  Anyways... I digress.  My uncle was my father figure.  I miss him.  Every christmas and thanksgiving we'd go to his house and celebrate with him.  I was only 9 at the time when he passed.  At his funeral, I tried and did pretty well to not cry.  I shed a couple tears at the funeral because I couldn't help it.  But afterwards is when I couldn't control it anymore.  As soon as we stepped outside, I collapsed on to the ground crying histarically.  My grandpa and my mom had to carry me to the car cuz I couldn't function.  They also had to carry me up to my apartment.  They laid me on my bed.  I cried all night.  I had lost one of the most important people in my life.  And it hurt.  I got really depressed and didn't really do much of anything.  I got in fights at school cuz i just had so much emotion built up.  Then once the holidays came I just stopped functioning almost.  My behavior got worse.  My mom was worried about me so sent me to a shrink.  Didn't help.  In one session I stunned him and my mom with my mouth.  I flipped out.  Went completely nuts.  I almost punched him.  I cussed so much that I coulda broken a record with how many cuss words i used.  On thanksgiving me and my mom were supposed to go to my aunt's to celebrate with them like we usually do but I couldn't.  I couldn't sit in a house even though it was with my family and try to act like i was happy.  I sat at home crying.  Then christmas went the same way.  Then, a couple more months went by.  I started to get better but I still wasnt me.  That's when I started gettin in more trouble.  I started hanging out with the wrong people.  I almost was in a gang.  I was beating up people on the streets cuz for those few moments it made me feel better.  Then, I got into drugs.  Nothing real big.  I got better over a period of a couple months and my mom noticed.  I was acting more like me.  I got away from drugs and the crowd I was hanging around with.  Then a couple years go by.  My grandpa, the only parent that was living of my mom's died.  This hurt me almost as much because I was close to him as well.  That is when I started working on cars.  I was 11.  I was helping my mom do oil changes on her car and doing other lil stuff.  It was the one thing that calmed me.  A couple more years go past.  When I was 15, my uncle, who was in the armed forces, was called up for a conflict.  He had basically had become my new father figure.  On December 25, Christmas day of 2004 my aunt got the dread visit.  Her husband had been killed.  So now I had found out that my real dad was a douche, and had lost the 2 only dads i known.  I'm not looking for sympathy.  I'm just giving you a heads up if I'm a lil off during the holidays.  Don't get me wrong.  I love seeing family.  And every christmas we go to the cemetary where both my uncles have headstones.  And each year i visit them and pray on there graves and talk to them.  Also, i can't remember what year, one of my neighbor's oldest sons was killed in a drunk driving accident during December.  I was also close to him.  So now you guys know why I hate the holidays.  I've had too much death and sorrow during my holidays. 

 

 

(R.I.P. James David Carpenter)  I miss you so much!

 

 

(R.I.P. Jay W. Carpenter)  I love you grandpa and miss you a lot!

 

 

(R.I.P. Joshua Demetrius Kudrna)  I miss you man!

 

 

It sucks down here with out you guys.  But to my new found Family at OGLC.  I love you all!

So only a few of you know. I made it back to Ohio on Wednesday. Honestly, it wasn't my choice. I got to the point where, while I missed my family/friends, I was not ready (nor did I want) to go home. The guilt trips from my family had reached the limit, so Evil and I are back to our original plan. I get my job here... he comes next year... and we go back together && get our own place. Am I excited for it? Hell yes. So what's the problem?? Where do I begin.......

 Since October 30th, the very day I got into Las Vegas... my family had been asking when I was coming back... and hounding me for information. If I didn't call... I was bitched at (when they knew he worked/had his phone/we were out doing things)... and even when I did call... something was always wrong. In November, I got my mom set up on Facebook, and from then on it was wall posts everyday that tore my heart out... and stressed me out to the point where my urges came back. It got to the point where the things that were posted there..... had my mind racing... and the sadness/anger/stress built until I took it out on myself && the people around me. The last three weeks in Las Vegas were torturous... I was in a battle with my conscience, and in the end, the bad side won. I, instead of opening up at times, went back on my promise && scratched. The last time (about a week ago) was the worst... I broke skin (never had that happen before). Do I blame my mom/family for caring about me/missing me? No. I am angry that they can't cut the cord && let me become the woman they've always bitched at me to be...

In the two days that I've been home, I've been depressed and resentful. Everything I do/say is a memory of something that happened when I was there.... and at times it hurts because it feels like the entire thing was a complete dream. Like I just got woken up from the best sleep I've ever had.... and I'm in a horrid reality I can't escape. People out here are so glad to have me back.... but I am just not eager to go back into the routine that was boring and uneventful. To the life where I was unhappy... and a town that harbors bad memories && filled with people I don't even feel I know anymore. I find myself in tears a lot, whether it's to a song, or a picture, or even the smallest memory. The worst part is that I have no one to comfort me now. Before, if I was upset, I could hold Evil in my arms && feel like everything was going to be okay. Here, I get stared at and ignored. My mom will stand in my doorway, ask if I'm okay, watch for a minute, then walk off. It's like they don't care that they've literally killed a part of me. I'm not whole right now......

To top it all off, I found out something that upset me like no other. My family (especially mom) talked about how bad they wanted me home.... but they wouldn't lift a finger to even try and get it to happen. Sunday and Monday, Evil and I talked to her about sending at least $100 to help with the ticket cost... his brother had offered to pay for it... and I told him no. After an argument over the phone with my mom, I told her to forget the money... and I would figure it out somehow... if I had to whore myself on Fremont Street to give them what they wanted (yes I said that). I called Amy in a frantic nature... so emotional I paced around the parking lot of the swapmeet... and scared her with certain statements I had made. She offered to pay for it with her credit card (since she wanted me home too), and bought it two nights later. Wednesday night when I got home, I found out from my mom that my grandpa had given her the $100 to get the ticket... but she kept it for herself. It felt like a ten ton weight landed on me...

I'm struggling right now on whether or not to tell him... because I know how much it will upset him && how big the blowup will be. It was hard enough admitting that I stayed at Evil's place the whole time. Today he took me job hunting/shopping && couldn't stop talking about the money (which was actually for the water bill) and how he hated spending his... and I just sat there and took it. It's not like I could have said much anyhow. While I'm getting blasted for what they want to do... my mom is feeding her addictions... and pretending like it's all roses && rainbows... I can't go on with the facade. It's not that I don't love my family... don't get me wrong... but the things they do... and the hypocracy along with it.... it's overwhelming && I'm sick of it.

Vegas was a huge learning experience for me. I overcame fears, did things I never thought I could/would do in life, met amazing people, and found strengths/weaknesses that I hadn't known. I found someone who would do anything for me.... and made me feel good about myself... who loves me past every imperfection && jealous moment... and who wants a life with me. I've been promised a lot in my life... but very few have actually gone good on their word. Evil is one && I'm grateful for every moment (good or bad) that was spent with him. I made a lot of memories that I'll never forget. Right now the plan is for him to get me in April.... but the way things are going... I highly doubt I can wait until then. I've already looked up ticket prices for next month... had thoughts of driving my grandpa's car down there.... Anyhow... it's 3:45am && I'm hella tired from being out most of the day... I'll write more eventually.  -Mica-

ok, i'm sure some of you have noticed that i haven't been quite myself lately. i've been letting things get to me. i've been slightly snappy to some members. and i've definately been moody. now, i could blame winter blues for all of this, but that would be a flat out lie. it's just december. fucking december. i hate this month with the burning passion of a thousand suns. first, the commercialized sack of shit holiday known as christmas. december isn't even two weeks through yet and i want to choke the next radio dj that plays a christmas tune. i'm just not in the christmas spirit. haven't been able to enjoy one for awhile now. not since my dad was thrown in jail for 20 years for something he didn't do and my last grandparent died. so here's my thoughts on christmas. bah fucking humbug! second thing i hate about december is my birthday. one may ask what's so bad about a birthday. well, for starters, my birthdays have always sucked. i usually get piss drunk just so i don't have to deal with it. people want me to take off work to celebrate it. why bother? it's not like it's a big deal anymore. i'm turning 31. so what. it's not a milestone birthday. just a day where i get another year older and another year closer to my grave. but the biggest reason i have issues in december stems from my time in college. let me take you back to 1997, when i was an addict and street fighting for money for my drugs. i met an amazing girl named sonja. we hit it off instantly. i usually don't believe in love at first sight, but it actually happened. she looked past my addiction and did what she could to get me to stop. and i did for awhile. but that wouldn't last for very long. because you see, dear reader, love may be blind but people see in color. her father and brother didn't like the color of my skin. i was too white. and apparently, black isn't supposed to mix with white, which is bullshit in my opinion. but i digress. her brother threatened to kill me if i didn't break up with his sister, and then pointed a gun to my temple to show he wasn't fucking around. this was december 19th, 1997. sonja and i planned to come back to erie for my christmas break. we were both looking forward to it. she was supposed to celebrate her 18th birthday with me at home on december 22nd. i even planned on proposing to her on christmas. (oh look, another reason to hate christmas) but things changed in an instant with the cold barrel of a 9 mm glock pointed at my head. i decided to let my fear dictate my actions. on december 20th when i was leaving to come home to erie, i met up with sonja and became the biggest dick in the world. i told her i was after one thing, and since she gave it to me, i was done with her. she gave her virginity to me. she gave everything she had into the relatinship. and i sat there tearing her down for what seemed like eternity. i called her fat and unattractive, which was a lie. i called her worthless, which was a lie. i used her low self esteem against her and tore her down, piece by piece til she was sobbing in the fetal position on the side of the road. i left that night, hating myself for what i put her through, but feeling like it was the best thing i could do to her. i didn't want to tell her that a member of her family threatened to kill me. i thought that would hurt her worse than i did. so i sat in erie through the winter break, filled with regret for the things i said. i decided to come clean and tell her why i said the horrible things i said. i'm sure she knew that wasn't me. she knew me better than anyone. i went back to youngstown on january 2nd, 1998 and went to her house to try to explain myself to her and beg her forgiveness. i had a single red rose in my left hand as i knocked on the door. her mom answered and started crying. she told me what happened after i left. my sonja went into her room and took a bottle of sleeping pills and chased it with a bottle of vodka. she died on december 21st, 1997 at 1:35 am and it was my fault. it put me on a horrible downward spiral of depression and drugs that wouldn't cease for a couple years. i still blame myself for it, but i realized there's nothing i can do to bring her back. what's done is done. i'm not looking for sympathy, just wanted to explain why i've been the way i've been. thanks for reading.

I miss her touch,

I miss her smell,

i miss her voice,

I miss her warmth,

I miss her kindness,

But most of all I miss her face, her comforting eyes, and her reassuring hugs.

 

The last time I spoke to her, she was hurting, and there was nothing I could do to help her,

I regret many things I have done in my life,

But the thing I regret most is not being able to help her...

There were no words I could say to comfort her,

And not a thing I could do to make her smile...

 

Its been 6yrs.

And I miss her so much.

I wish I could see my grandma one last time...

 

 

"this little light of mine, i'm gonna let it shine.......all down the road. i'm gonna let it shine....

its a new day at OGLC!!!and we need you were kicking off our new year and were askignour members to step up .have you ever wanted to be more of a part of the oglc family ??do you want to show what you can do for the site or just show off some of your mad skills???well were ready for you over the next few weeks we will be putting together a few crews members that are interested will join the crew and work with our mods .

each time we get a mission for our teams we will send out an email to the mod and team members themod will then step in and keep up with the team taking the mission from there till the turn in date . this will help the admin and give more power and control of the site to our mods and members .this is something we hope you all are interested in helping with the future of OGLC.

some of the crews we are currently looking for memebers for will be :

video promo crew...this crew will be ask to update the videos for the player bring in seasonal videos and help with new videos that teach members the way we do thigns at oglc. talk to iggy to get on this crew

visual arts crew... banners ads and more ... you know you can do it .. and we need to switch things up around here more other to keep things fresh so why not help out .talk to aries fro more info on this crew

the GEEK SQUAD!!!! be part of the networking for OGLC update memebers on fb myspace vampfreeks solids ect  ..do you like to tweet ?do you have the connections ??? get in touch with nfuggy to geton the list for this crew.

promotion crew ... we will still hope that all the members will help with word of mouth but were looking for a few people to be ready somenights when the room is busy we will plan promo nights .. if you wanna get in on one of ht emost importan parts of the site .. step up

backstage crew were looking  to get  back to the events at oglc with the new year we would like to get a crew together .theses memebrs will wrok with us on finding talent and seting up an even these members will be allowed to co host with a mod and  pull events together and help mod an event .with more than one person working onthis team we should be able to really tap in to more events more often  something we really want to jump on .

for more info on any of these crews please talk to your admin or the mods involved .. we look forward to working with you ..as allways 1 love 1 chat .

Hello OGLC!!! 

Mr.Blog King (Nihilist) can't catch Ms.Grotesque in sheer number of Blogs, but we sure do appreciate the posts. Especially the poems. Thanks for Blogging!!  

Y'all should take a look at profile pics. There are some cool pics of New Members and regulars. It is awesome to see Members hanging out on the site. Aly (MarineWifey) was once again, the meat between to MOD buns. Nfug and Ian (Baxter to you old regs) hung out in Mass. The following weekend, two Admin families got together in Salem for Halloween.

This is the type of bond that sets OGLC apart from most other sites. We actually interact, in person, with the folks we chat with. If y'all think that we just chat on the internet and keep it at that, then you should ask around, and we will share with you, all the memorable experiences and love that we have shared in person. "One Love ~ One Chat" isn't just our motto...   we actually live it.

Proof, is in Tamica (Wicked_Lette) in Las Vegas now, as well. She missed all the MODS and Admins in Vegas in June, but she is here now.

My goal to promote OGLC LIVE in your town, has taken a swerve in the road, but we are still on track. I am fortunate enough to have met more than 65 OGLC members in person so far. Hopefully, we will continue to make a difference in more lives, and not just on the internet, but in person.

~Peace.  OG.

i hope everyone will join in on  wishing suzzette aka donna monna  a wonderfull and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

she is more than a pretty face and amazing voice she is all heart and busts her butt fro the site and for OG she is the woman behind the man.. and well we all know shes 110%wooooman.

heres to you suzette for all you do may your year be the best one yet may you watch all your dreams come true and may you look back a year from now and say i cant belive we have come this far and that we are all here wishign you yet another birthday !!!

best wishes much love and many happy returns..lea

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I thought since all of you here at Oglc have opened up and let me be apart of " The Family" that I think now is a great oppurtunity to let you all meet my family.  :)

 

kk_DELICIOUS family:

3-sister-in-laws

2-nephews

1-daddy

1-mommy

3-brothers 

AND

lil ol Me :)

 

if u cant see the picture: go here --> http://s184.photobucket.com/albums/x282/KAKA_kaatastropic/?action=view&current=family.jpg

SO PRETTY MUCH JUST STOPIN BY SHOWIN MY LOVE TO ALL MY LOVEBLE OHANA HERE AT OG-LEETCHAT AND THAT I MISS EACH AND EVERYONE OF U AND WELCOME TO OG-LEETCHAT TO ALL NEW COMERS SUX U GUYS CANT GET TO KNO ME CUZ MY COMP IS DOWN BUT I PROMISE TO MAKE IT HAPPEN SOON CUZ I KNO MY OG OHANA MISSES ME BUT PLZZ KEEPIN UR FAITH AND PRAYERS FOR ME AS I AM GOING THROUGH A TOUGH TIME WIT MY OHANA HERE AT HOME TO MUCH DETAILS TO EXPLAIN Y BUT I LOVE U GUYS AND DONT B SHY ON TEXTING ME MISS U ALL LOVE YOUS GUYS

-ANDiKEALii

Deep eyes,

so mysterious and inviting.

 

Soft hands,

that I long to feel around me.

 

A beating heart,

broken like mine, so fragile.

 

Warm smile,

that can brighten the darkest of days.

 

Full lips,

I can't wait for them to touch against mine.

 

A good mind,

I gather so many ideas from it.

 

A soothing voice,

whispering loving words.

 

Brown skin,

sweet tasting like sugar.

 

It isn't hard to see,

exactly why you're my other half.

 

-August 25, 2009-

I love you, Jose <3

 

I wanted to come on the blog part and personally say that I want to thank OG for changing my life and giving me a place to call home. He took a girl who was afraid to be herself and showcase her own talents and showed her that it is ok to be me because only I know where I am going in life and who I want to become. He showed me the power of being your own person and not letting anyone keep you down. He made me happy to be a part of a family and spread love to everyone around me. Only I can be completely aware of the difference and impact I have on others.

 

 

So thank you Rodney for changing my life and inspiring me to be a better person every single day I'm breathing. I will never forget it and I will NEVER be able to pay you back. I love you.